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so I got a new car which is pretty awesome. Brand new 2007 Volvo S40 loaded. I'm wicked stoked on that, that's pretty much the only thing in my life that i'm stoked on honestly.
i hate it because lately i've been completely miserable and depressed. i hate everything so much and it sucks. i hate being depressed and this is the most depressed i've been in years. i'm so fucking lonely here. i feel like i have no one. maybe it's no different than it's been but now it's just more apparent to me. i have no reason to wake up every morning and i hate that. the only thing i have is my job, which luckily i love. i don't go out at all here, even less than i did in orlando because i need to avoid the drama and awkwardness.
i just don't know. i really don't know what to do anymore. all i know is somethings gotta change and get better because i can't feel like this everyday