¡hola! ¿como estas?
so tonight i realized how quirky the word "you" can be when using it online. it can be spelled in many different ways such as, 'you', 'yew', 'u', and 'yoo'. isn't that amazing? well, anyway, i thought i would update in my livejournal because a) haven't done it in a day or two, b) bored, and c) i have things to say. however, i feel like no one reads it except like 4 people, which is cool, but, at the same time, retarded. okay, well, last night i hung out with colette, mandy, laura, and kavanaugh. that was, um, fun. i don't know.. for some reason, it felt awkward. maybe it was because we hadn't seen one another all summer, or because we're all different people. but what i do know about that situation is that i didn't like it. wow, and we came to the realization that school is going to be so much different this year. and i liked last year so i don't want it to be different. but the new people are going to come and screw everything up. that's enough of that though.. okay, i really miss basketball, guys. i used to complain about it because it was such a pain, but now i would give anything just to have back some of those memories. wow, C for cheesy. but cheesy can also be cute. moving on, THE O.C. comes back on september 8th. major kudos.. dude, tonight i was flipping through channels on tv because there was like nothing on, and i got to channel 39, and ELLLEENNNN was on! it brought a smile to my face. you guys, i don't feel good. oh, newsflash! i started running the other day! it's quite relaxing. it's good 'me' time, and it really lets you think about anything and everything on your mind. AHHH! i just remembered.. i haven't read a lick in those god-forsaken summer reading books. school starts in like 18 days and counting. oh the fuck well. jorge, i'm not allowed to say those demeaning words. okay, time to get serious and go deep into the gunk that is my thoughts.. well, ever feel like your effort goes unnoticed and unappreciated? like you could try so hard and do all you can and the other person(s) just don't give you any kind of response? well, i do.. and it's so aggervating. and you can't back down, and you don't want to give it up? so you keep trying only to know that it's not going to work? and then you end up confused, let down, and tired? ah, i feel that way about lots of stuff.. i have come to the conclusion that i am a bottomless pit of emotion. it's like i'm content with being unhappy. like if i'm happy, i'm not working hard enough.. and if i'm happy, then i'm just waiting for the next bad thing to happen.. and i've had it up to here with all of it, but it won't go away. so it's just there. like a monkey on your back that never goes away. that's how i feel. i want life to make sense. is that too much to ask for? guess so.. well, on that note, i'm going to go listen to some really insightful-however-depressing music.. keep it real, chums.. (at this point, i don't give a shit if you leave a goddamn comment).. [holds up fingers like peace sign] PEACE \/ <<< those are the fingers.. oh, FIX YOU by coldplay=really good song..