i got nothing better to do..

[laurenemig]

ugh, why am i in such a depressed mode? i can't seem to leave this little phase either. i've been in this state for quite some time now, but i do tend to slip in and out of it every once and a while. but lately, it just stays. it's like no matter what, i know i'm going to be fucked over. well, i had mother fucking basketball tonight, and it was a bitch. tomorrow's practice is gonne be fucking shit too, and i'm probably going to keel over and die. but there's only six more of the stupid shits left. and the coach is a dick on feet. i hate the man. bless me, i just sneezed. i like to sneeze. while we're on the subject of the grand sport that basketball is, we leave for nationals next wednesday. thank god, i get to get the hell away from here. anyways, i'm sorry if this entry seems a little profane, but i'm just so mad at the goddamn world. i think i just need to scream at someone a big fuck you [with hand gestures], and i'll be good. well, let's analyze something. it's something i saw on someone's profile. >nothing seems to be the way that it used to be everything seems [s h a l l o w] god give me truth in me and tell me somebody is watching over me< i liked it, so i'd thought i'd let you see it. hm, it's kinda interesting. also, i saw >i need someone to understand.. can you hear me?< i guess it means something like the one person you want to understand doesn't, and no one understands your struggles and weaknesses. well, at least that's the message i got from it. i can relate to it. it's cool. so that was our two, i'll call them, profile-snags for the evening. since that's over and done, let's move on.. um, do you ever wonder if people try to piss you off on purpose? like they might say or tell you something that they know will set you off, but they say it anyway just because they want to be an ass about it, and they want to see what your reaction will be? ugh, this aggervates me. oooh, do i have a story for you? actually i have two. well, storio uno is at practice tonight, when we were scrimmaging each other, someone's tampon fell out [gasp]! i won't say who, but i must say it was some funny, but like gross funny. okay, storio dos.. well me and molly were talking tonight, just about random stuff, and drugs came up somehow, and she's like 'would you ever sniff crack?' and i said 'for 5 bucks, i might sniff yours.' hahaha, what a knee slapper. yeah, shut up. i thought it was funny. let's see.. oh, i also might invest in a fish because i want someone to talk to, but then that means i need to get a tank and food and a filter thing. [clearly, you can tell that i know a little something-something about fish maintenance] hm, i might get a beta fish because those little mother fuckers never die. well, i definitely think that's enough. i didn't intend to write so much, but my fingers just wouldn't stop. don't complain. no one's forcing you to read this, but it would be a nice gesture if
you kept on reading it. oh come on, we both know you love to hear my bitching about the world's and my life's little mishaps and inperfections. alright, since i'm just blurbing out random thoughts, i think i'll call it a night. i'll sleep well tonight hopefully. blah! and i'm out with a boom-boom-bang! leave a hot message and i'll holla back atcha. ew, i'm so not black. well, peace easy bitches. that's all she wrote. lauren.