sad day

[laurencurrie]

I'm just really frustrated right now. I feel like no matter how hard i try, i can't keep up. Bleh. This week I've got 1 formal presentation, 2 midterms, 4 quizes, 2 papers, 3-4 smaller assignments, the usual work, plus possibly sleeping somewhere in there....Thinking about it makes me literally sick to my stomach. I'm getting the go around as well about how I need to find a job, and my major isn't good enough to get a job....that makes me even more sick to my stomach. I can't think about finding a job...i can't even handle the one I've got. I can't even fathom the possibility that I would have to go back to more school, that I couldn't be qualified for SOMETHING when I graduate....I just can't do this stress anymore. Not to mention, I can't afford anymore school at this point. I just want to be done! At least for a little while, enough to gain some sanity. Its like, I had the light at the end of the tunnel, the tunnel leading me to graduation...and its been effectively squashed out. (sigh). I KNOW I'll be fine, I can support myself. I've been doing it now for almost 3 years through school, and on parttime pay. I can find a full time job that will support me, I know I will. I only have me and the little kitty, surely there's a buger joint that needs a burger flipper. ;) Ahhhh.... I'm so tired at this point I don't know what I'm saying. I did alot of studying this weekend. I still don't feel prepared at all. that's all I did other than the 1.5 hours I spent working out with Megan this morning. I'm glad I did that, it makes up for the fact I'm a horrible cook and my chicken and rice didn't come out right, so I had to go grab some whataburger.

Ok I need to stop complaining and go to bed. This is week is going to be a doozy, so if I don't update that's why. But you know me, I live for livejournal. I'm sure I'll update at some point, something meaningless and stupid. LOL. Night folks.