"'You're so Hott, Lo." - (says Josh)
"Yea, I write songs and I'm going to sing them in a punk rock band." - Me
So what? You may say im to insensitive to be writing songs... how do you know that they are not fucking I hate you songs?? yea, shut up.
The only person that I have shared this creative side of me with is Shannon, Because she see's and halfway experiences what I go through. I know that if I write something about the way I'm feeling that she will read it with an open mind and she usually will know exactly who and what that song is about. She knows me so well and even though we have our problems, and i mean MAJOR problems, I wouldnt change her for the world. We get in fights and she calls me a bitch and I threaten to kick her out, but like an hour later we are acting goofy as fuck and making fun of other ppl in our neighborhood. She gets me, i love her.
Josh and I are doing good, or so he thinks, i'm having second thoughts about it all. There is a decision to be made by "someone else", then I will know what to do. I'm not saying I dont like Josh, im just saying I think something with someone else could be better. Josh and I have talked about if we were to break up what would happen..just to talk about it, and we have come to the conclusion that we would still be friends and probably act like we always have. The first time I met Josh we were wildin out together.. it was insane how comfortable we were together just to have met each other like that. He is like the only person in the whole world that I could be friends with, date, breakup (if it happened) and still be good friends with after that. He is amazing thats for sure.
I got home to gastonia last night at about 11:15. I didnt go to bed until about 2 or 3. Tears were shed and feelings of depression were coming over me. I didnt get out of bed until about 1:30 today and even then I just got Annie her food and water and then came back to my bed where I am now typing this on my laptop. Im sure I will sleep thru most of the day today anyway. Reality just isnt that great right now and it is kind of hard to deal with. Im sure ill be up by at least 6 because Josh will come over after he gets off work.
I dont know if I want to go out tonight, its Tuesday, one of the best nights to go out besides a weekend but I just dont know if I feel up to it. Maybe I should go out and try to clear my head.. it could turn out good or bad, it most likely will all depend on whether or not i involve the beer and SoCo Kamikazies. [sigh]
So what? You may say im to insensitive to be writing songs... how do you know that they are not fucking I hate you songs?? yea, shut up.
The only person that I have shared this creative side of me with is Shannon, Because she see's and halfway experiences what I go through. I know that if I write something about the way I'm feeling that she will read it with an open mind and she usually will know exactly who and what that song is about. She knows me so well and even though we have our problems, and i mean MAJOR problems, I wouldnt change her for the world. We get in fights and she calls me a bitch and I threaten to kick her out, but like an hour later we are acting goofy as fuck and making fun of other ppl in our neighborhood. She gets me, i love her.
Josh and I are doing good, or so he thinks, i'm having second thoughts about it all. There is a decision to be made by "someone else", then I will know what to do. I'm not saying I dont like Josh, im just saying I think something with someone else could be better. Josh and I have talked about if we were to break up what would happen..just to talk about it, and we have come to the conclusion that we would still be friends and probably act like we always have. The first time I met Josh we were wildin out together.. it was insane how comfortable we were together just to have met each other like that. He is like the only person in the whole world that I could be friends with, date, breakup (if it happened) and still be good friends with after that. He is amazing thats for sure.
I got home to gastonia last night at about 11:15. I didnt go to bed until about 2 or 3. Tears were shed and feelings of depression were coming over me. I didnt get out of bed until about 1:30 today and even then I just got Annie her food and water and then came back to my bed where I am now typing this on my laptop. Im sure I will sleep thru most of the day today anyway. Reality just isnt that great right now and it is kind of hard to deal with. Im sure ill be up by at least 6 because Josh will come over after he gets off work.
I dont know if I want to go out tonight, its Tuesday, one of the best nights to go out besides a weekend but I just dont know if I feel up to it. Maybe I should go out and try to clear my head.. it could turn out good or bad, it most likely will all depend on whether or not i involve the beer and SoCo Kamikazies. [sigh]