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okay so i need to VENT. i had a great day today, until right after school. i was in the best mood allll day until i got into the car with my dad. i don't even want to refer to him as my dad anymore. i can't stand that man, all he ever does is get me upset. i feel like crying. he wasn't there for me when i was a kid, and now that he is trying to be, i don't want him to be. its annoying. i hate it that he tries to judge my friends, and the way that i live. he doesn't know me, he doesn't know ANYTHING about me. all he knows is his stupid church [and i'm not calling church stupid at all, you just have to understand how obsessed with it he is] and his nephews that live where he does. i want to go to church, i really do, i want to be a good person, but he is pushing me farther and farther away. i'm so turned off about everything, i don't even know. it's getting bad. he thinks that the 10 minute car ride home from school is going to be his time to preach to me. i can't even listen to country music on the way home. i'm tired after school, i'm sick of him judging me and telling me i'm going to hell. he does not know my personal life, and he doesn't know my friends, or my boyfriend. everytime i try to tell him how i feel, he turns a scripture verse around on me and tells me that i'm a bad person. i'm seriously in the worst mood right now. i just want to sit here and cry. i wish i had a normal family.
I HATE IT!!
I HATE IT!!