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it pisses me off that whenever I am home from school the house if filled with strangers.
One women who tries to translate for the new polish immagrant living here, nurses and people who try to give me grandma therapy.
If I come out of my room I am bombarded by ppl asking me 9 million fucking questions telling me to learn polish GO FUCK YOURSELF that cunt gets paid to learn english. She can do it I'm not doing shit.
This lady can't speak english so its hard for my poor grandma, and my uncle could give two shits he just takes me grandma out shopping and it makes everything better.
he hid all her money in trusts and shit so when she dies nothing is left to inherit because he and his wife are evil and very smart.
I hope my uncle burns to death alive. I will take that back if he can prove to me that hes a good man.
But hes not and until then I hope he crashes and I hope the car goes in flames and he burns alive and I want him to feel just for a moment...I want him to take in every bit of pain my mother felt, the pain my father feels, and mainly I want him to feel the pain that I and my sister feel every single day. I want him to feel it so bad.
This is a man whose had everything hes ever wanted. Hes living quite well of his job, his wife, and my dead grandma and living grandmother.
While melanie and I fend for outselves.
I know I wont do good with this sonograpghy shit and I'll keep getting passed along because I already paid the school and I've been cheating on my tests bc I have no other choice anymore.
I'm not a studtent I've tried 4 times to be one. I can't get higher then an 85 and 85 is 100 for me. Even when i cheat I get 69's...so theres no hope in that shit.
But I'm not learning anything at school to be honest with you.
My teachers aren't certified teachers they don't know what they are doing and can't pronounce anything correctly therefore I can't either nor can anyone else in the class.
I'm told that I'm not trying hard enough.
I put in my fridays and my afternoons after school to go over 6 pages of notes in class.
How is that teaching? explain to me how listening to someone talk and taking notes helps me?
Explain to me how the student tells the teacher "Scanning is the problem I am having...I don't know how to do it" and the teacher says "ok lets go get some tutoring first"
SO WHEN THE FUCK DO I LEARN THE SKILL?
I hate how selfish my class is theres so many students and no one wants to help eachother out.
None of the machines work right and its hard to find one that works.
I am very fusterated and I know I took a wrong turn.
I am happy I tried but when this ends I'm fucked.
If my mother watches over me she will make sure I have a good job where I am able to take care of myself and perhaps a baby someday.
I believe in her so I try not to worry so much. I get what I want one way or another no matter how long it takes I always get what I want. If I actually WANT something I will have it and no one will stop me.
I want that independance and I will obtain it.
I want a red standard miniature poodle so fucking badly for my 21st birthday.
Im going to save up find it and buy it. I might wait for gusto to be dead first though bc I like him and its just to many animals.
Also I can't wait to get a dog to cause a fight. I will LOVE IT when my uncle tells me to get rid of it.
I will love that argument...if hes smart he wont say shit. I doubt he will.
but then again he will do something evil like poison the dog or make sure theres no help for me to buy food and shit.
well I'll see what happens...but like I'm probably getting this dog for my birthday all on my own.
One women who tries to translate for the new polish immagrant living here, nurses and people who try to give me grandma therapy.
If I come out of my room I am bombarded by ppl asking me 9 million fucking questions telling me to learn polish GO FUCK YOURSELF that cunt gets paid to learn english. She can do it I'm not doing shit.
This lady can't speak english so its hard for my poor grandma, and my uncle could give two shits he just takes me grandma out shopping and it makes everything better.
he hid all her money in trusts and shit so when she dies nothing is left to inherit because he and his wife are evil and very smart.
I hope my uncle burns to death alive. I will take that back if he can prove to me that hes a good man.
But hes not and until then I hope he crashes and I hope the car goes in flames and he burns alive and I want him to feel just for a moment...I want him to take in every bit of pain my mother felt, the pain my father feels, and mainly I want him to feel the pain that I and my sister feel every single day. I want him to feel it so bad.
This is a man whose had everything hes ever wanted. Hes living quite well of his job, his wife, and my dead grandma and living grandmother.
While melanie and I fend for outselves.
I know I wont do good with this sonograpghy shit and I'll keep getting passed along because I already paid the school and I've been cheating on my tests bc I have no other choice anymore.
I'm not a studtent I've tried 4 times to be one. I can't get higher then an 85 and 85 is 100 for me. Even when i cheat I get 69's...so theres no hope in that shit.
But I'm not learning anything at school to be honest with you.
My teachers aren't certified teachers they don't know what they are doing and can't pronounce anything correctly therefore I can't either nor can anyone else in the class.
I'm told that I'm not trying hard enough.
I put in my fridays and my afternoons after school to go over 6 pages of notes in class.
How is that teaching? explain to me how listening to someone talk and taking notes helps me?
Explain to me how the student tells the teacher "Scanning is the problem I am having...I don't know how to do it" and the teacher says "ok lets go get some tutoring first"
SO WHEN THE FUCK DO I LEARN THE SKILL?
I hate how selfish my class is theres so many students and no one wants to help eachother out.
None of the machines work right and its hard to find one that works.
I am very fusterated and I know I took a wrong turn.
I am happy I tried but when this ends I'm fucked.
If my mother watches over me she will make sure I have a good job where I am able to take care of myself and perhaps a baby someday.
I believe in her so I try not to worry so much. I get what I want one way or another no matter how long it takes I always get what I want. If I actually WANT something I will have it and no one will stop me.
I want that independance and I will obtain it.
I want a red standard miniature poodle so fucking badly for my 21st birthday.
Im going to save up find it and buy it. I might wait for gusto to be dead first though bc I like him and its just to many animals.
Also I can't wait to get a dog to cause a fight. I will LOVE IT when my uncle tells me to get rid of it.
I will love that argument...if hes smart he wont say shit. I doubt he will.
but then again he will do something evil like poison the dog or make sure theres no help for me to buy food and shit.
well I'll see what happens...but like I'm probably getting this dog for my birthday all on my own.