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I really didn't want to post about this. But I needed to get some stuff out. If you know what i'm talking about, fine. If not, that's probably even better.
I let it happen again.
I thought things were going to be different. I thought people could change. I thought I could forgive someone for their mistakes.
I thought wrong.
I feel so stupid and embarrassed that I let this happen.
I know that things would have been fine if there was just more communication. But, unfortunately, communicating is one of my weaknesses. But that doesn't automatically make me assume things are BAD. It makes me assume they're good. And you know what they say about assuming. Whatever.
Anyway, NO ONE DESERVES TO BE SCREWED OVER LIKE THAT. It is NOT cool to LIE to someone, and promise them things that ARE NOT TRUE. I hope NO ONE ELSE ever gets treated like that.
Maybe it wouldn't be so bad if this were the first time.
Honestly, in the beginning, I couldn't have asked for more. I was happy, and I didn't have to worry about anything. It was so easy. Everything was perfect, except for one thing:
The person I'm meant to be with would NEVER do that to me.
Oh yeah, and remember that one post where I thought I had everything "figured out?" That was supposed to be about this. I take it back.
And now I'll do what I do best... steal someone else's words.
If you really want to know how I'm feeling, these lyrics are perfect.
Matchbox 20
"Leave"
It's amazing
How you make your face just like a wall
How you take your heart and turn it off
How I turn my head and lose it all
It's unnerving
How just one move puts me by myself
There you go just trusting someone else
Now I know I put us both through hell
I'm not saying there wasn't nothing wrong
I just didn't think you'd ever get tired of me
I'm not saying we ever had the right to hold on
I just didn't wanna let it get away from me
But if that's how it's gonna leave
Straight out from underneath
Then we'll see who's sorry now
If that's how it's gonna stand, when
You know you've been depending on
The one you're leaving now
The one you're leaving out
It's aggravating
How you threw me on and you tore me out
How your good intentions turn to doubt
The way you needed time to sort it out
I'm not saying there wasn't nothing wrong
I just didn't think you'd ever get tired of me
I'm not saying we ever had the right to hold on
I just didn't wanna let it get away from me
But if that's how it's gonna leave
Straight out from underneath
Then we'll see who's sorry now
If that's how it's gonna stand, when
You know you've been depending on
The one you're leaving now
The one you're leaving out
The one you're leaving now
The one you're leaving out
I'm not saying there wasn't nothing wrong
I just didn't think you'd ever get tired of me
I let it happen again.
I thought things were going to be different. I thought people could change. I thought I could forgive someone for their mistakes.
I thought wrong.
I feel so stupid and embarrassed that I let this happen.
I know that things would have been fine if there was just more communication. But, unfortunately, communicating is one of my weaknesses. But that doesn't automatically make me assume things are BAD. It makes me assume they're good. And you know what they say about assuming. Whatever.
Anyway, NO ONE DESERVES TO BE SCREWED OVER LIKE THAT. It is NOT cool to LIE to someone, and promise them things that ARE NOT TRUE. I hope NO ONE ELSE ever gets treated like that.
Maybe it wouldn't be so bad if this were the first time.
Honestly, in the beginning, I couldn't have asked for more. I was happy, and I didn't have to worry about anything. It was so easy. Everything was perfect, except for one thing:
The person I'm meant to be with would NEVER do that to me.
Oh yeah, and remember that one post where I thought I had everything "figured out?" That was supposed to be about this. I take it back.
And now I'll do what I do best... steal someone else's words.
If you really want to know how I'm feeling, these lyrics are perfect.
Matchbox 20
"Leave"
It's amazing
How you make your face just like a wall
How you take your heart and turn it off
How I turn my head and lose it all
It's unnerving
How just one move puts me by myself
There you go just trusting someone else
Now I know I put us both through hell
I'm not saying there wasn't nothing wrong
I just didn't think you'd ever get tired of me
I'm not saying we ever had the right to hold on
I just didn't wanna let it get away from me
But if that's how it's gonna leave
Straight out from underneath
Then we'll see who's sorry now
If that's how it's gonna stand, when
You know you've been depending on
The one you're leaving now
The one you're leaving out
It's aggravating
How you threw me on and you tore me out
How your good intentions turn to doubt
The way you needed time to sort it out
I'm not saying there wasn't nothing wrong
I just didn't think you'd ever get tired of me
I'm not saying we ever had the right to hold on
I just didn't wanna let it get away from me
But if that's how it's gonna leave
Straight out from underneath
Then we'll see who's sorry now
If that's how it's gonna stand, when
You know you've been depending on
The one you're leaving now
The one you're leaving out
The one you're leaving now
The one you're leaving out
I'm not saying there wasn't nothing wrong
I just didn't think you'd ever get tired of me