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i can't sleep.
tonight was monumental. i should be so happy. and i was at the time, but now im all depressed again. god damnit i thought i was done with this. when will this fucking stop hurting. i would pay anything.
he doesnt deserve me being like this, i should be happy. and when im with him, i truly am :-)
im just in such a weird mood.
and i feel like a fucking failure. i just ate probably 10 lbs worth of food by myself while watching 24. disgusting.
i cant believe you fucking did this to me.
i dont know what else to say
i think im quitting livejournal.
at least publically.
i like writing my thoughts but #1 no one really gives a damn and #2 if youre my friend you would ask me what was going on in my life and not just read it on some blog.
sorry that i'm being so cynical.
bye.
tonight was monumental. i should be so happy. and i was at the time, but now im all depressed again. god damnit i thought i was done with this. when will this fucking stop hurting. i would pay anything.
he doesnt deserve me being like this, i should be happy. and when im with him, i truly am :-)
im just in such a weird mood.
and i feel like a fucking failure. i just ate probably 10 lbs worth of food by myself while watching 24. disgusting.
i cant believe you fucking did this to me.
i dont know what else to say
i think im quitting livejournal.
at least publically.
i like writing my thoughts but #1 no one really gives a damn and #2 if youre my friend you would ask me what was going on in my life and not just read it on some blog.
sorry that i'm being so cynical.
bye.