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Recent realizations:
As much as it sucks to fall out of love, I think I'm finally starting to accept it. I worked so hard to hold on, but I don't deserve to work hard if I'm the only one putting anything into it. I deserve to be held on to.
I don't deserve to be with someone just because it's convenient for them or because they don't think they can do better. I deserve to be someone's first choice. I'm intelligent, I'm sweet, I'm honest, I'm cute, I'm funny (occasionally). Damn, I'm a catch.
I don't need to be with someone right now. I have some great friends, and even though things aren't great at home right now, my family is wonderful.
I deserve to spend some time making life what I want it to be for me, not because it's what other people expect of me.
Since I've started going to the gym, even though it hasn't been all that long, I feel great. My clothes fit better than they have in a long time, and I love knowing that I actually did something for ME today that wasn't just me being lazy.
So, self... keep doing your thing. Things will work themselves out in the end, and not just because life can't get much crappier than it has been, but because you're optimistic and you deserve good things.
As much as it sucks to fall out of love, I think I'm finally starting to accept it. I worked so hard to hold on, but I don't deserve to work hard if I'm the only one putting anything into it. I deserve to be held on to.
I don't deserve to be with someone just because it's convenient for them or because they don't think they can do better. I deserve to be someone's first choice. I'm intelligent, I'm sweet, I'm honest, I'm cute, I'm funny (occasionally). Damn, I'm a catch.
I don't need to be with someone right now. I have some great friends, and even though things aren't great at home right now, my family is wonderful.
I deserve to spend some time making life what I want it to be for me, not because it's what other people expect of me.
Since I've started going to the gym, even though it hasn't been all that long, I feel great. My clothes fit better than they have in a long time, and I love knowing that I actually did something for ME today that wasn't just me being lazy.
So, self... keep doing your thing. Things will work themselves out in the end, and not just because life can't get much crappier than it has been, but because you're optimistic and you deserve good things.