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I don't want to keep hurting him. I love him, I really do. He's amazing, and he treats me like a princess, so what's the problem? I don't exactly know. I find myself picking fights out of nowhere and making up excuses as to why I don't feel like going out. I'm turning into this ugly person. I don't even recognize myself anymore. It's killing me to see him cry, to see him try even harder to make me happy. I just cant seem to make him understand that it isn't him. It really is me.
I guess my issue is that I'm young and confused. I'm not exactly sure as to what it is that I want. Is it fair to have such a wonderful person go through the emotional roller-coaster of a hot one minute, cold the next-girlfriend? I break his heart either way. I break his heart if I stay and I'll break it even more if I say goodbye.
I just don't know anymore...
I guess my issue is that I'm young and confused. I'm not exactly sure as to what it is that I want. Is it fair to have such a wonderful person go through the emotional roller-coaster of a hot one minute, cold the next-girlfriend? I break his heart either way. I break his heart if I stay and I'll break it even more if I say goodbye.
I just don't know anymore...