You Can't Stop The Progress, Unless You Slip AND Hurt So Bad
Title: You Can't Stop The Progress, Unless You Slip and Hurt So Bad
Character/Pairing: Jaebum centric, slightly implied Jay/? (for the second piece)
Genre: awful angsty-ness
Rating: pg-13ish for a couple of swears
Word Count: 285 and 231 respectively
Disclaimer: blarg!
Summary: a double farewell piece for Park Jaebum. The first is a quasi-rant/sum-up of what loosely happened in 2nd person and the second piece is an angsty poem about inspired by the feelings of extreme distress, panic, and fear. It's about being unable to handle what's going on around you and feeling the need to run away with your loved one.
A/N: I feel a need to express my sadness, this is totally self-indulgent
You Can't Stop The Progress, Unless You Slip
You can't stop the progress of fame once it hits and fangirls (and some boys) squeal at the sight of any inch of your skin - unless you slip. The only thing more fulfilling than helping someone to the top (to reach their dreams), is tearing them down. People love to hate, it's human nature.
You can't stop the progress of guilt, of shame, of regret, until you can face it with your head held high. But you're still just a kid and you can't take the hurt. You can't take the pain the words cause and the way your members look at you. How can you not blame yourself when they are getting punished because you slipped, you fell, you don't want to take them down with you. You just missed home, you wanted to go home, to be surrounded by familiarity; and now you would be. So why does it now feel like you're leaving home all over again?
This place had become home. It hurt to be here when you arrived; strange and foreign, you just didn't understand. You slipped and fell. Your new friends, your members, picked you up and healed that hurt. Now it hurts when you leave; you feel like you're abandoning your new family, your brothers, you're falling down, down - but it hurts too much to stay. Filled with bittersweet memories, you wished you had a little more time to take it all in.
You can't stop the progress of the plane, it's already taken off. You don't know which mistake you'll regret most; which will leave a bigger scar in your heart. You've already slipped too many times and the bruises, the cuts are beginning to overlap.
Hurt So Bad
I wish I wasn't here right now.
I wish I lived somewhere else.
I wish I could leave tomorrow and never come back.
I wish I could be forgotten, but not by you
Never by you
If I left would you come with me?
I miss you so fucking much.
I love you. I love you. I love you.
Let’s leave together and never come back.
Just you and me.
Together.
Until we can't remember each other or who we are or why we hurt so bad.
If we left together, tomorrow, would you stay with me, like we should be?
Would you always love me?
Do you love me?
Like I love you?
If you leave take me with you? Would you?
Promise
Where ever I go, where ever you go
You’ll be there
I’ll be there
I wish you were real
I wish you were here
I wish I wasn't already gone
I can't see you
I can't hear you
I can't feel you anymore
When did you leave without me?
I miss you. I love you.
Together or alone
I’ll miss you
I’ll love you
Until you find me
Until you come and get me
I’ll wait right here
Amongst the pain
Promise
I’ll be good
I won't cry
I’ll stop crying
I miss you . I love you .
Until I can't remember why I hurt so bad.
A/N: please note that the poem was written weeks ago, intended to be an unspecified pairing (and loosely inspired by my own life), it now seems to fit the current feelings of the situation