life sucks
so, my life is going pretty damn shitty right now. everytime i think something might go right, of course, it doesn't! why does this shit have to happen to me? uuuggghhh...i just don't know what to do about it. i'm sad. i'm in a deep state a lot of the time, and i don't know what to do about it. i need something. what, though? a boyfriend, perhaps, might help. or maybe i should move to a far off country where no one knows me, and start anew. hell w/ it. maybe china or the czech republic.
i'm stuck in murray right now, which isn't necessarily a bad thing. i miss my roommates, so i'm glad i have been able to spend some quality time w/ them!
we met these crazy guys over the weekend. jarrod and i really bonded sat night. it was a lot of fun. then, things happened when i was not around. homie don't play that. i am not one to usually care about this sort of thing, but this was a different situation. so, obviously, there is no interest by either of us. it just still feels weird, though. him and i have done some crazy things this past week. things i have never done in my life. why did i feel comfortable enough to do that w/ him? i dunno. he's getting ready to be out of my life for good, though. that's probably best.
well, i guess that's all. i'm thinking about going for a late night walk. i am just lying here on the couch up above mr. ed's. i can't fall asleep. i am just thinking way too much about things. i think i just need a little alcohol to clear my mind. good night to all.
i'm stuck in murray right now, which isn't necessarily a bad thing. i miss my roommates, so i'm glad i have been able to spend some quality time w/ them!
we met these crazy guys over the weekend. jarrod and i really bonded sat night. it was a lot of fun. then, things happened when i was not around. homie don't play that. i am not one to usually care about this sort of thing, but this was a different situation. so, obviously, there is no interest by either of us. it just still feels weird, though. him and i have done some crazy things this past week. things i have never done in my life. why did i feel comfortable enough to do that w/ him? i dunno. he's getting ready to be out of my life for good, though. that's probably best.
well, i guess that's all. i'm thinking about going for a late night walk. i am just lying here on the couch up above mr. ed's. i can't fall asleep. i am just thinking way too much about things. i think i just need a little alcohol to clear my mind. good night to all.