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well, this week has been quite crazy! a week ago, i was sitting at a hospital, wondering if one of my friends was gonna make it through the night. it sucks. it sucks so bad. i actually thought this was gonna be the time. we could finally be together! we had spent every night together, and talked on the phone throughout the day...and then he didn't call me fri when he got off work, so i called him. he had a four wheeler wreck at work. his brain was swelling, and he had a seizure. he also had a busted blood vessel. i don't think i've cried that much in ages.
he finally got better. i had went to the hospital every day that chad was in there except for one. however, one day, his bro. walked in and told me that chad's ex. was there. and boy, was she! she made sure that i knew they used to be together. this girl is freakin 16 years old!!!!! i can't take it!
but, his bro told me not to really mention her name, because he didn't really remember her being there, and he didn't want to talk about it.
life is just so confusing. i hate it sometimes. why does it have to be like that? i thought i was a good person...why can't anything good happen to me? UUUGGHGHGHG oh well...maybe i just need to wait. i'm getting impatient.
chad is finally home now. i don't know about it. his memory is not very good. he don't really even remember me being there this past week. it's aweful. but, like i told him, it could always be worse. he should be thankful that he is still here.
i don't wanna go back to murray. i'm gonna miss my family. my poor papaw had to have surgery the other day. i wish i could be here for him!
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i talked to alicia tonight. i told her that i was gonna move to bowling green, and transfer to western. it may be a bad idea, but i really need to be close to my family. i am going nuts. i feel bad for leaving her and mb out in the dark, but like i told alicia, you can't help the way you feel! she said she understands, though! i love that kid.
he finally got better. i had went to the hospital every day that chad was in there except for one. however, one day, his bro. walked in and told me that chad's ex. was there. and boy, was she! she made sure that i knew they used to be together. this girl is freakin 16 years old!!!!! i can't take it!
but, his bro told me not to really mention her name, because he didn't really remember her being there, and he didn't want to talk about it.
life is just so confusing. i hate it sometimes. why does it have to be like that? i thought i was a good person...why can't anything good happen to me? UUUGGHGHGHG oh well...maybe i just need to wait. i'm getting impatient.
chad is finally home now. i don't know about it. his memory is not very good. he don't really even remember me being there this past week. it's aweful. but, like i told him, it could always be worse. he should be thankful that he is still here.
i don't wanna go back to murray. i'm gonna miss my family. my poor papaw had to have surgery the other day. i wish i could be here for him!
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i talked to alicia tonight. i told her that i was gonna move to bowling green, and transfer to western. it may be a bad idea, but i really need to be close to my family. i am going nuts. i feel bad for leaving her and mb out in the dark, but like i told alicia, you can't help the way you feel! she said she understands, though! i love that kid.