i'm miserable.
i've been having a lousy week, to say the least. a girl i thought was one of my good friends failed to invite me to her birthday party, obviously. it's stupid to get upset over it, really.. but it's like, i barely have any friends, and to find out the few you thought you had actually don't like you or whatever, it's painful. for some reason it was like some blunt realization and i couldn't stop myself from crying. not just about that, of course, but everything. i've just failed horribly at everything i've set out to do lately it seems.
i ended up breaking a promise to myself and my mother. it's been 2 years, and i broke it. i thought i was done with it, but i couldn't help myself, and i don't know what came over me. but no one was there. i didn't have anyone to talk to, and i'm tired of being alone. isn't there anywhere i can go? i feel like i have no one i can depend on to be there for me, and i hate that.
because i'll always be there for every single person i know. i know how it feels to be left alone. no one deserves it. :(
i ended up breaking a promise to myself and my mother. it's been 2 years, and i broke it. i thought i was done with it, but i couldn't help myself, and i don't know what came over me. but no one was there. i didn't have anyone to talk to, and i'm tired of being alone. isn't there anywhere i can go? i feel like i have no one i can depend on to be there for me, and i hate that.
because i'll always be there for every single person i know. i know how it feels to be left alone. no one deserves it. :(