utter darkness....

[laurathewhora]

she broke away from herself never to return
how do i drown the slut out
make her get off her knees
shes been down so long i think shes forever dirty
falling into beds so fast
and the arms she slips into,the skin she devours and disposes of
its all under my belt like a hidden shadow
she dont regret a thing
shes cold and warped
and now im paying for the way my bodies been given away
carefree she takes me along for the ride
she dont notice me screaming to get up
for him to shove his horny love
i gotta get away get this whore out of my soul
cuz im burning black
and im fading into a coma like state
shes taking over my body
lets me borrow it while i cut away the filth
then takes back my hole and runs and trips into arms she thinks love her
but really these arms are looking for cheap thrills
i tried to tell her they dont like you and love is not being fucked but shes wrapped in body feelings
i guess she went numb,neither of us feel the blade
but god my heart aches i want to rid myself of her whoreish image
im the girl they think they slept with
they think i was having fun
they intoxicate me,and i leave myself behind
she comes out and shifts into the body love girl
i want to feel so bad i think maybe thats my way of feeling while im drunk or fucked up
where is my self respect?
i lost it to the hole in the sky
now im only a targeted prey
and no one loves me
i think ill go away,into my utter darkness
that allows me to feel like im ok