Much needed help!
Ok, so I'm struggling to make a decision about next year. I have to options, which are driving me insane. OK so the first one is this: I can stay in Washington, move to Olympia(where my school is at) so I wont waste too much gas and I can be closer to school. By the end of the school year I will graduate with my B.A. with an enfasis on Latin American studies and Literature. Or: I can go to Mexico, study there for a year and work with street children and youth (that's what I would be doing through the study abroad program I want to take) and come back to the states for an Extra year at my school and graduate in 2 years. I really, really want to go to mexico and study cuz I've been wanting to do that since high school...but I also want to graduate and move on to get my masters in teaching. Also my parents are constantly asking when I'm going to graduate.
I need some advice on what I should do and what would be best for me. I think that going to Mexico and working and studying at the same time will be very helpful and will give me experience working with children and youth since I want to be a teacher. I don't know.... maybe I want to go back cuz I miss it so much and I'm desperately trying to hold on to my roots, my culture and my family.
I've had this urge to leave and go back, I feel as if I don't belong here, like I need to be closer to the things I know so I wont loose a part of me. I'm afraid that if I stay here I will loose my identity, that part of me that makes me proud of who I am and not ashame of anything. Then again everyone tells me I have no future over there, that I'm destined to failure and will not make it. I never wanted to be here, I never wanted to come, I was fine where I was and maybe if I go back I'll be able to put some closure to these feelings and finally move on. I've lost so much be being here that I just want to get some of it back. But will I aclomplish anything by going? Will I feel as if I'm home? I wont know unless I go and try, but is it worth loosing a year of school? I don't know, I don't know. I just need some advice.
I need some advice on what I should do and what would be best for me. I think that going to Mexico and working and studying at the same time will be very helpful and will give me experience working with children and youth since I want to be a teacher. I don't know.... maybe I want to go back cuz I miss it so much and I'm desperately trying to hold on to my roots, my culture and my family.
I've had this urge to leave and go back, I feel as if I don't belong here, like I need to be closer to the things I know so I wont loose a part of me. I'm afraid that if I stay here I will loose my identity, that part of me that makes me proud of who I am and not ashame of anything. Then again everyone tells me I have no future over there, that I'm destined to failure and will not make it. I never wanted to be here, I never wanted to come, I was fine where I was and maybe if I go back I'll be able to put some closure to these feelings and finally move on. I've lost so much be being here that I just want to get some of it back. But will I aclomplish anything by going? Will I feel as if I'm home? I wont know unless I go and try, but is it worth loosing a year of school? I don't know, I don't know. I just need some advice.