...what.the.fuck...
ok, so brief update of the past few weeks:
* my voice teacher was in the hospital for a bit, so i didn't have a lesson until february... i guess he came back too soon, so he's now on medical leave through spring break. i'm so concerned for him, but at the same time i'm still going to have to take a jury this semester... but the temporary woman who i'm working with now, joy mcintire, is so wonderful!! not that she can replace dr. mark, but her techinques are so different than his, and it's really interesting to work with someone new... and she's soo nice!! so things are working out as best they can.
* for those who haven't heard this saga 487129341 times, my voice has been abnormal for the past 3 weeks or so... i went to student health about a week ago, and they took a throat culture, and i swear to God that when they called the next day, they told me it was negative. well, all through the weekend my throat was killing me more and more, so i went to dr. stern early in the week... the next day, student health called me and asked why i hadn't called them back, because apparently the results came back positive. how shitty. so i'm on biaxin now, which was giving me weird abdominal pain and dizziness, but i'm fine with it now, thank God.
* highlight of my life: i saw renee fleming at symphony hall last nite. so amazing!!! i was snuck in, so i was by myself, and was kicked out of 3 different seats, but at 2 points in the evening i had a really good seat... whatever, i didn't have to pay, i was lucky enough to be there in the first place! seeing her was an inspiration as much as a discouragement, haha... she's just so incredible, and it's hard to imagine ever becoming that good... but whatever, that's why i have my whole life to practice!! how sappy, heh...
* ha, this has to win the fucked-up-story of the year award.... so today i was in the NATS vocal competition, which i was preparing not to do because i've been sick... but i was resonant enough today, so i did it. my first audition went soo well i thought, and apparently it did- because i made it to round 2!!! exciting stuff... i did those run-off's, and was really anxious to hear the results... the top 3 people from each division get to perform in a recital tomorrow nite, and no matter what place, there's a money prize!!! so anyway, everyone's sitting in the concert hall, waiting to hear the results... and then they were given: AND I MADE IT!!!! so naturally, i called bunches of people to tell them the news, and how i was gonna shit myself because i was so excited, and to of course come to the recital tomorrow!!!
here's where it gets mega-shitty....
i received a phone call while at dinner, about 20 min's after i left CFA, from the president or whatever of NATS... she said to call back, so i did and left a message... i came back to the house and was ranting to jillian about how excited i was, and then the woman called back.... "i have some terrible news... there was some bad math that occured, but i'm so sorry to say that you are not qualified for the finals after all... i'm so sorry..."
ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS?!??!?!
it's fucking addition. how can you fuck that up?!? and even if you do, it's their fucking mistake, why should my week be ruined because of their incompetent math skills??? i wouldn't be at all upset if i didn't make finals, but to get so psyched about doing well, and being told that it's not good enough for a recital, that's some bullshit. complete bullshit. it's just fucking unbelievable, and now i'm a mopey, sulking idiot about to go soothe my mood with some chocolate, so i can feel so much better about eating that too. whatever, there's nothing i can do about it. it's done and they suck. no point in bitching or whining. that's just annoying to everyone, including myself. so, i extend my apologies for those who actually put up reading this, ha...