I've had a bad day.... about friendship and changes....
Click to viewI told you about the fight with that friend of mine, right? Well, today I met her at school twice (she is a teacher there) and the first time I saw her she was with her back at me and I..... ran.... I panicked and ran in the opposite direction before she could see me.... This has never happened to me before. I face the problems, don't hide from them in my classroom!
The second time I met her she was walking towards me, didn't look at me at all and when I told her I wanted to talk to her she never stopped walking.... I tried calling her later and left her messages in Skype.... nothing.... she is not answering.... And I need to talk to her because I am making a list of guests for the garden party for my prom.... if she plans to start talking to me until then....
She is one of the closest friends I have.... it is only her and one more girl (my age this time) I really trust in real life. Aneta, this is her name, is a precious person to me but she changed radically after her father died last year from infection in the hospital... She became angrier and angrier... she started hating everyone around her (she is a person who cannot say no so she always ends up doing other people's job just because she never refuses jobs and she hates the people whose jobs she is doing....)
I am not going to judge her and I am going to apologise to her no matter that each and every person I talked with is on the opinion that the fight we had is stupid and that she is acting like a teenager and I don't need to apologise. Still, she is my closest friend and I don't care so much who apologised to whom as long as we are in good relations again. I love her too much...
And I had an essay today in English.... nothing unusual, ordinary topics, but I made some severe grammatical mistakes(2-3) just because I was tired and my heda was pounding and I panicked.... I will have an A for the year no matter what, but I don't care for the grade but for the things behind it.... and to know that I blew up my final essay in high school makes me all gloomy....
So I had a bad day, indeed.... and I love that song even when I haven't had a bad day :P
EDIT: *HUGS* to my favourite(and only:P) flist!
I know I haven't been paying attention to you, guys, these two days but this is my Hell week... and it will turn into a Hell month... I promise I will catch up with all of your posts tomorrow or in friday... if I am still alive ^_^ :P:P