I know exactly how you feel. Right now, I'm not working at all, what with it being the holiday season and so on. It won't pick up again until after the new year. I am more broke than an antique vase (whatever the hell that means) at the moment, thus I can't anything for anyone this Christmas. I regret not saving up more money up to this point, but there are a couple of good reasons for that: 1) I've never had this much money before in my life, and 2) I had no idea that this situation would come up at this time. Actually, I sold a bunch of stuff that I don't use anymore (CDs, books, etc.) through my friend last year, and I'm still waiting for the money. When I get that, and I hope it's soon, That will take care of my money problem for a little bit. But until then, I have to wait.
Friends-wise, I have the time to see them, but not the gas money. Even if I do go, I never have the will to hang with them. Basically, I want them to hang with me, but they're always busy in one way or another. Besides, I also don't believe that I'm interesting enough for their own good. Perhaps that's why I'm still single. I know that it's a matter of time before that special someone will show up, but when I see people around my age getting MARRIED, it kind of makes me increasingly impatient.
In general, I'm just miserable. Part of it due to what I mentioned above, but also because of my evil stepmother. Ever since she moved in here 6+ years ago, she insisted on taking over. I think she goes with the motto, "If I'm not happy, nobody's happy. And if I am happy, everybody is even worse off." Maybe that's why her bitchiness has rubbed off on me. She's also very selfish, as she and my father have splurged on themselves when she put this house in her death-grip and cares less and less about me. She did that to my sisters, too, who have moved out. I feel like a prisoner in this house, and I want out of here.
My apologies for this incredibly long comment, but I just wanted to vent. I applaud you if you're still reading this. Now I'm done. ¬_¬
I'm sorry :( I hope your friend gives you the money they owe.. I know how that is. It sucks.. like I still need to get a dvd, cd, prom dress, shirt, & jacket from friends.. Fuckers..
I hope you feel better. It's always good realizing that other people feel similar.. so thanks. :)
Friends-wise, I have the time to see them, but not the gas money. Even if I do go, I never have the will to hang with them. Basically, I want them to hang with me, but they're always busy in one way or another. Besides, I also don't believe that I'm interesting enough for their own good. Perhaps that's why I'm still single. I know that it's a matter of time before that special someone will show up, but when I see people around my age getting MARRIED, it kind of makes me increasingly impatient.
In general, I'm just miserable. Part of it due to what I mentioned above, but also because of my evil stepmother. Ever since she moved in here 6+ years ago, she insisted on taking over. I think she goes with the motto, "If I'm not happy, nobody's happy. And if I am happy, everybody is even worse off." Maybe that's why her bitchiness has rubbed off on me. She's also very selfish, as she and my father have splurged on themselves when she put this house in her death-grip and cares less and less about me. She did that to my sisters, too, who have moved out. I feel like a prisoner in this house, and I want out of here.
My apologies for this incredibly long comment, but I just wanted to vent. I applaud you if you're still reading this. Now I'm done. ¬_¬
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I hope you feel better. It's always good realizing that other people feel similar.. so thanks. :)
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