something doesnt feel quite right.
im running out of clock
and that aint a shock
some things never do change
so tonight is strange...
usually im depressed because i hate something about my life..blah blah blah.. but it hasnt been that way lately, because i just kind of decided that being that way isnt going to get me any closer to where i want to be..but anyways, the point to this was.. things in my life arent making me to sad these days, theres always those few things you can't change, but you get over them.
Life forces you to.
But what makes me sad is to see the people i love so much hurting.
I can't detach myself from other peoples feelings..its just how I am. 100% F. And sometimes that really sucks.
Because what are the odds that you will ever be able to be truely happy, and have all the people you care about be happy.
Hm..not so good.
Its not like it constantly keeps me down, but its always there in the back of my mind. I think if I could I'd give my own life to invent a drug or something that would make people happy and live harmonious lives. I'm not really sure what the point of writing this all out was...but its on my mind, and I'm just sitting here..so it happened.
ANyways
Its funny how such little things can make you smile. A couple people that I havent spoken to, or been friends with for a long time somehow remembered it was my birthday in 1 hour! That right there made me smile pretty big. Its nice to know that even when things end horribly and you think someone has lost all care or thought of you. That they havent =)
Have to work tomorrow as always, so off to bed.
and that aint a shock
some things never do change
so tonight is strange...
usually im depressed because i hate something about my life..blah blah blah.. but it hasnt been that way lately, because i just kind of decided that being that way isnt going to get me any closer to where i want to be..but anyways, the point to this was.. things in my life arent making me to sad these days, theres always those few things you can't change, but you get over them.
Life forces you to.
But what makes me sad is to see the people i love so much hurting.
I can't detach myself from other peoples feelings..its just how I am. 100% F. And sometimes that really sucks.
Because what are the odds that you will ever be able to be truely happy, and have all the people you care about be happy.
Hm..not so good.
Its not like it constantly keeps me down, but its always there in the back of my mind. I think if I could I'd give my own life to invent a drug or something that would make people happy and live harmonious lives. I'm not really sure what the point of writing this all out was...but its on my mind, and I'm just sitting here..so it happened.
ANyways
Its funny how such little things can make you smile. A couple people that I havent spoken to, or been friends with for a long time somehow remembered it was my birthday in 1 hour! That right there made me smile pretty big. Its nice to know that even when things end horribly and you think someone has lost all care or thought of you. That they havent =)
Have to work tomorrow as always, so off to bed.