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dear Lord,
give me strength to balance the things i want with the things that are best for me.
everything in my life seems to be tumbling down in a matter of days. i got bronchitis at the end of september and have consequently been sick for some time and am just now getting my voice back just in time for auditions for winter quarter shows, mainly the fantasticks, which is only a part that i've wanted and dreamed about since i was 14 years old and last night i gave a really kick ass audition and you think that would count for something but of course not because my voice teacher, who is directing the fantasticks, is too scared to risk damaging my voice because it's so fragile from being so sick and it doesn't matter that i was flippin born to play the part or that i've worked so hard to prepare for it. none of that matters.
pardon me, i'm feeling a little sorry for myself.
on top of all that my jury partner has mono and went home for the quarter so now i have to wait until winter to do my acting jury which i would really like to get out of the way now. AND my scene partner in my acting class has completely dropped off the face of the earth and consequently screwed me over in acting, not that i'm going to be penalized for the fact that he's not there but he's diminishing my learning and my growth and i'm so fucking pissed off.
rrar.
on a happier note i'm called back for 2 roles in 12th night. so think happy thoughts for me.
give me strength to balance the things i want with the things that are best for me.
everything in my life seems to be tumbling down in a matter of days. i got bronchitis at the end of september and have consequently been sick for some time and am just now getting my voice back just in time for auditions for winter quarter shows, mainly the fantasticks, which is only a part that i've wanted and dreamed about since i was 14 years old and last night i gave a really kick ass audition and you think that would count for something but of course not because my voice teacher, who is directing the fantasticks, is too scared to risk damaging my voice because it's so fragile from being so sick and it doesn't matter that i was flippin born to play the part or that i've worked so hard to prepare for it. none of that matters.
pardon me, i'm feeling a little sorry for myself.
on top of all that my jury partner has mono and went home for the quarter so now i have to wait until winter to do my acting jury which i would really like to get out of the way now. AND my scene partner in my acting class has completely dropped off the face of the earth and consequently screwed me over in acting, not that i'm going to be penalized for the fact that he's not there but he's diminishing my learning and my growth and i'm so fucking pissed off.
rrar.
on a happier note i'm called back for 2 roles in 12th night. so think happy thoughts for me.