Mid Year Collapse
So I'm having my junior year break-down. More of a collapse really. I suppose i've been having breakdowns all year with thoughts of the future (mine and others) -breaking friendships and putting trust in new ones- relationships- miles and miles of homework upon hours of rehersals. They all lead to breakdowns really. But this is more of a recouperation type thing. I can't stop sleeping and i don't feel bad about it. Wednesday night i fell asleep at 9:30! Can you believe it?? I haven't gone to bed that early since the second grade! I slept till 7am. Then that night i slept from 12-12. Then the next night from 1-11:30. Tomorrow i look forward to quite the same sleeping pattern. It's weird being tired from sleeping so much- but this tired is more of me making up all the sleep i have missed this whole year.
February vacation is POINTLESS. Know when i need a vacation? RIGHT NOW. I can't hold out till April, thats 5 weeks till vacation or somthing. It's too much.
With spring comes physical activity which adds to more tiring circumstances. The running thing shall resume and we'll see what else. I need to stop being fat and lazy.
RIGHT NOW in the back of my mind i am slaughtering the mass amount of homework that is due on Monday. I shall clean that mess up tomorrow. I don't understand how teacher's feel that they can give us twice the amount of homework just because the school gives us Friday off. GIVE ME A BREAK! They never let up.
Oh and another thing. I understand that people don't want war and that they are all about peace. Frankly- i don't know where i stand right now. But i DO KNOW that if you want to make a statement don't stand on a street corner in MELROSE or in ANDOVER. For christ sakes, who in the hell are you helping? What point are you trying to make by making a sign that says "Honk for Peace"? If you really feel that way then march your ass into Boston and speak out about how you feel- try to change people's minds- inform people! Don't make a sign with markers and construction paper and hold it on a corner. GAH.
It's just like that fucking nun who came to the school to speak to us about the death penalty. I am against it. But if you're for it or against it you NEED to be able to support your view. She's a grown woman. You can't hold a view and base it around somthing that you THINK God would want. She complained that too many people were imprisoned and that rehab should be provided. But who is she or anyone to say who can and cant have rehab? AND wouldn't you rather have people imprisoned than a million people dying from violence every day? She says that we need reform and better facilities and more answers, and we ask her how and she replies "Well thats up to you- and others" WHAT?!?! OR you could make statements and have nothing to back them up with.
So the moral of that story is- if you can't back up what you say don't SAY it, and especially don't do it for a profession.
I'm done ranting.
Now i must go back to that magnificent thing called sleep.
---LAura
.i wish you'd call.
February vacation is POINTLESS. Know when i need a vacation? RIGHT NOW. I can't hold out till April, thats 5 weeks till vacation or somthing. It's too much.
With spring comes physical activity which adds to more tiring circumstances. The running thing shall resume and we'll see what else. I need to stop being fat and lazy.
RIGHT NOW in the back of my mind i am slaughtering the mass amount of homework that is due on Monday. I shall clean that mess up tomorrow. I don't understand how teacher's feel that they can give us twice the amount of homework just because the school gives us Friday off. GIVE ME A BREAK! They never let up.
Oh and another thing. I understand that people don't want war and that they are all about peace. Frankly- i don't know where i stand right now. But i DO KNOW that if you want to make a statement don't stand on a street corner in MELROSE or in ANDOVER. For christ sakes, who in the hell are you helping? What point are you trying to make by making a sign that says "Honk for Peace"? If you really feel that way then march your ass into Boston and speak out about how you feel- try to change people's minds- inform people! Don't make a sign with markers and construction paper and hold it on a corner. GAH.
It's just like that fucking nun who came to the school to speak to us about the death penalty. I am against it. But if you're for it or against it you NEED to be able to support your view. She's a grown woman. You can't hold a view and base it around somthing that you THINK God would want. She complained that too many people were imprisoned and that rehab should be provided. But who is she or anyone to say who can and cant have rehab? AND wouldn't you rather have people imprisoned than a million people dying from violence every day? She says that we need reform and better facilities and more answers, and we ask her how and she replies "Well thats up to you- and others" WHAT?!?! OR you could make statements and have nothing to back them up with.
So the moral of that story is- if you can't back up what you say don't SAY it, and especially don't do it for a profession.
I'm done ranting.
Now i must go back to that magnificent thing called sleep.
---LAura
.i wish you'd call.