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I've been thinking a lot about my future.
What do i want to do with my life?
There is so much out there that could be possible to do, some of it that i've barely experienced. I don't want to miss out on somthing amazing.
I've been talking to my teachers a lot about professions and jobs that they think i'd be interested in. Not that what they tell me is going to help me decide my future much...but, at least its suggestions.
It's winter and it seems like i've lost sight of everything i built up this past summer. I enjoyed sitting outside on my porch swing, reading books and drinking tea. It was so nice and peaceful. Now that it is winter- its harder to spend time outside comfortably and be able to take everything in. The first snow is always magical, but they the hrashness of the world kicks in and turns the snow dirty and icy and the salt and sand turn the snow and ice from a wonderland to a garbage can.
Words keep falling out of my mind-sorry if things dont sound just as they should- i'm not thinking too clearly tonight.
It's funny how things seem to be going very wrong, how teachers seem to be acting different and people at school... its funny when you relize that it was all in your head. And knowing that you did contribute to that whole ordeal. Things seem almost normal again. Teachers are listening again and everyone else seems to be almost all there. Well- not everbody.
I went to talk to my english teacher today. We are reading Emerson's poetry. It is very exciting and i enjoy it a lot. It seems that only a few of us in the class are taking the time to look deeper into the poems and are using out subconcious to think.
My teacher says that i am a trancendentalist. I'm looking into that, not letting it shape my views of if i am or am not. But it is somthing to check up on. We were talking about how sometimes living day to day gets dull if you act as "you're meant to act" BUt when things happen, like when we start experiencing new things with people you are attracted to- how alive it makes you feel.. how it reminds you that there is a purpose in this life. Not just for that- but that it is possible to be alive.
I do not understand people who are homophobic. It boggles my mind that people find it offensive seeing two guys or two girls together. Maybe its not what they're used to seeing, but that would be like saying they dis-regard everything that is different than what they were taught was correct as children. I think it is ridiculous and AMAZINGLY close minded of people to jump to conclusions saying that if a gay couple adopts that the child is going to "be messed up" when they grow up. Or making a statement such as "Having to think that they're fathers are ..well , you know" All i could respond as i was holding back my anger was "Well it goes the same for a mom AND a dad...its not like you enjoy thinking of your parents doing things of the sort" It just makes me sooo angry that some people are so sure of what is right. Especially when they have not seen anything or the sort, just "heard" about it. And now for the church, somthing i am part of to say that gay men can not become priests....why?? because they think that being gay and being a pedafile is the same thing- WELL IT IS NOT! These are grown ADULTS. Why are THEY so close minded. It makes me embaressed to know that the heads of our church are so close minded to anything that wasn't carved in stone or "interpreted" the way they want it to be. The whole situation is ridiculous. And i bow my head and hope that one these close minded bastards die off and the future of the church, or whatever- comes in...people will open there eyes and stop the racism between everyone from schools all the way to the Pope. Now, THAT would be somthing amazing.
---LAura
NOTE: I do not mean to be putting out controversial issues,but i have had it on my mind all day... and if you are offended,then be offended These are my opinions
What do i want to do with my life?
There is so much out there that could be possible to do, some of it that i've barely experienced. I don't want to miss out on somthing amazing.
I've been talking to my teachers a lot about professions and jobs that they think i'd be interested in. Not that what they tell me is going to help me decide my future much...but, at least its suggestions.
It's winter and it seems like i've lost sight of everything i built up this past summer. I enjoyed sitting outside on my porch swing, reading books and drinking tea. It was so nice and peaceful. Now that it is winter- its harder to spend time outside comfortably and be able to take everything in. The first snow is always magical, but they the hrashness of the world kicks in and turns the snow dirty and icy and the salt and sand turn the snow and ice from a wonderland to a garbage can.
Words keep falling out of my mind-sorry if things dont sound just as they should- i'm not thinking too clearly tonight.
It's funny how things seem to be going very wrong, how teachers seem to be acting different and people at school... its funny when you relize that it was all in your head. And knowing that you did contribute to that whole ordeal. Things seem almost normal again. Teachers are listening again and everyone else seems to be almost all there. Well- not everbody.
I went to talk to my english teacher today. We are reading Emerson's poetry. It is very exciting and i enjoy it a lot. It seems that only a few of us in the class are taking the time to look deeper into the poems and are using out subconcious to think.
My teacher says that i am a trancendentalist. I'm looking into that, not letting it shape my views of if i am or am not. But it is somthing to check up on. We were talking about how sometimes living day to day gets dull if you act as "you're meant to act" BUt when things happen, like when we start experiencing new things with people you are attracted to- how alive it makes you feel.. how it reminds you that there is a purpose in this life. Not just for that- but that it is possible to be alive.
I do not understand people who are homophobic. It boggles my mind that people find it offensive seeing two guys or two girls together. Maybe its not what they're used to seeing, but that would be like saying they dis-regard everything that is different than what they were taught was correct as children. I think it is ridiculous and AMAZINGLY close minded of people to jump to conclusions saying that if a gay couple adopts that the child is going to "be messed up" when they grow up. Or making a statement such as "Having to think that they're fathers are ..well , you know" All i could respond as i was holding back my anger was "Well it goes the same for a mom AND a dad...its not like you enjoy thinking of your parents doing things of the sort" It just makes me sooo angry that some people are so sure of what is right. Especially when they have not seen anything or the sort, just "heard" about it. And now for the church, somthing i am part of to say that gay men can not become priests....why?? because they think that being gay and being a pedafile is the same thing- WELL IT IS NOT! These are grown ADULTS. Why are THEY so close minded. It makes me embaressed to know that the heads of our church are so close minded to anything that wasn't carved in stone or "interpreted" the way they want it to be. The whole situation is ridiculous. And i bow my head and hope that one these close minded bastards die off and the future of the church, or whatever- comes in...people will open there eyes and stop the racism between everyone from schools all the way to the Pope. Now, THAT would be somthing amazing.
---LAura
NOTE: I do not mean to be putting out controversial issues,but i have had it on my mind all day... and if you are offended,then be offended These are my opinions