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It's so hard to get through a day anymore.
It's like i spend all my time waiting for somthing that isnt even promised to me yet, somthing that will come and i will enjoy like nothing else, and then it will be gone.
....I'll just be waiting again
It's not even December yet and the christmas season creeps up on me to bring excitement and then drops fastly away reminding me a whole month is ahead of me, 30 days, 744 hours. Yuck!
Distance sucks hardcore.
Leaders bit the big one tonight. The one thing that i thought would cheer me up, failed to do so tonight.
I'm not ready to be so in charge. I don't know enough yet. None of us do. At least i can admit it to myself, and it makes me feel back to square one, and seems like all that i thought i knew, i really don't. I dislike that feeling.
School is a hopeless cause.
I want to lay face down staring at the floor for the next 744 hours. Not sleeping, not crying, just laying there... staring at the floor.
If not 744 hours then at least till things un tangle themselves. This is nothing sleep can solve.
I dont want to eat or to talk or to blink. Just stare.
Maybe things will be looking up soon. It just seems everything that really brightens up my life is so far from me. (Literally and figurativly)
.i have issues.
---LAura
It's like i spend all my time waiting for somthing that isnt even promised to me yet, somthing that will come and i will enjoy like nothing else, and then it will be gone.
....I'll just be waiting again
It's not even December yet and the christmas season creeps up on me to bring excitement and then drops fastly away reminding me a whole month is ahead of me, 30 days, 744 hours. Yuck!
Distance sucks hardcore.
Leaders bit the big one tonight. The one thing that i thought would cheer me up, failed to do so tonight.
I'm not ready to be so in charge. I don't know enough yet. None of us do. At least i can admit it to myself, and it makes me feel back to square one, and seems like all that i thought i knew, i really don't. I dislike that feeling.
School is a hopeless cause.
I want to lay face down staring at the floor for the next 744 hours. Not sleeping, not crying, just laying there... staring at the floor.
If not 744 hours then at least till things un tangle themselves. This is nothing sleep can solve.
I dont want to eat or to talk or to blink. Just stare.
Maybe things will be looking up soon. It just seems everything that really brightens up my life is so far from me. (Literally and figurativly)
.i have issues.
---LAura