Jan 24, 2006 20:00
after letting that last entry sink in, I have less of a notion now about what I want to do. but you know, I can always count on my dad to reassure me that my life will work out. so the only plan I can make now is to do the things I like to do (which, believe it or not, extends beyond weekends).
I feel observant lately. Maybe the only thing I'm really observing though is myself. That's selfish, isn't it?
I am reading a book about all the things we subtly introduce in our lives that, overtime will harm us (i.e. genetically modified produce, nail polish, sunscreen, etc.) I was hoping to feel compelled to make a change, instead however, I feel like it is suddenly hopeless to eliminate all the hazards. I guess the logical thing would be to change the big things. Oh no, for me it's all or nothing - if I'm going to change one thing, I'm going to change them all (which is why I probably won't change anything, instead I will live with the knowledge that everytime I wash my hair, I may get cancer or damage my ovaries). C'est la vie
I'm not sure why lj equates feeling restless with a frowny face.