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[lauraisakitten]

its been forever since ive written here. ive been avoiding it purposely for a while now. fred and i are no longer together. i will not go into detail. if you are my friend, then you should know. i am having a really bad day today. im getting a sore throat. i need to sleep. i wish i could sleep for a week and just forget about everything for a while. i wish time would speed up drastically so i can know where i will be. i feel lost. some of the time i think i know what i am doing. and then something snaps and i freak out. but i know i will get better. and then do it all over again.

im starting to feel like maybe i should find some spirituality. i could use it right now. ive just always been so scared to love god for some reason. ive never really believed in it. but i need something. i guess this is a cry for help.