its a poop on myself day
i cant stop feeling frustrated. nothing is really wrong. i changed birth controls, that may have something to do with it, as well as the migraines. at work, i just want to strangle my coworkers. just for being there. they dont do anything wrong, but talk to me. sometimes i just like to be left completely alone. but instead of reacting with a smile, i either just dont respond, or i am kinda rude. whats with that? i dont need to be that way. it just comes out. my shoulders wont stop hurting. up my neck. it just continues. fred rubs them everyday, which i am sooooo thankful for. but they still hurt. but it helps me to go to sleep relaxed. i really do think i am blessed with a freak of nature angel for a boyfriend. ha ha, that sounds bad. i mean, sometimes i think he is too good to me, it musnt be real.
on a lighter note, this week i talked to two old friends on myspace. well one was my old friend, Lauren. she is so beautiful. she was a childhood friend. the other was a girl named Danielle, i met her once at cody's house. i thought she was quite adorable. now she is a foreign exchange student in Italy!
i really need to do a photoshoot. for my soul. i need some art. i feel like painting also. but i have to work tonite, and all day tomorrow. then its thanksgiving. then friday - sunday i will be in austin with elisabeth. i really hope i get out of my funk by then. right now i just feel like a hermit and i dont want to converse. i need to snap out of it. but its pretty bad.
i posted a bunch of new pics on my flickr. go comment on them, i dont have any comments! not like i should feel like i have to have them, but a few would be nice.
i miss everyone. you know, all those people that were once such good friends, and now we dont even speak.
xoxo.
on a lighter note, this week i talked to two old friends on myspace. well one was my old friend, Lauren. she is so beautiful. she was a childhood friend. the other was a girl named Danielle, i met her once at cody's house. i thought she was quite adorable. now she is a foreign exchange student in Italy!
i really need to do a photoshoot. for my soul. i need some art. i feel like painting also. but i have to work tonite, and all day tomorrow. then its thanksgiving. then friday - sunday i will be in austin with elisabeth. i really hope i get out of my funk by then. right now i just feel like a hermit and i dont want to converse. i need to snap out of it. but its pretty bad.
i posted a bunch of new pics on my flickr. go comment on them, i dont have any comments! not like i should feel like i have to have them, but a few would be nice.
i miss everyone. you know, all those people that were once such good friends, and now we dont even speak.
xoxo.