i wish i had an excuse for my mood swings
so i'm writing this business plan for a record store for class, but i really want to do it. like i actually want to open a record store. it just seems so impossible. and then i read about this record store that some girls i know opened in miami. so it really isn't impossible, but i still feel like it is for me. maybe even more so because someone else already did it. i know that life isn't a race and that i shouldn't compare my accomplishments to other peoples and so on. i know these things but i still do them. i have plenty of bad characteristics and one of them is being envious. i'm not unmotivated, i guess i'm just scared. i've been that way my whole life though. when something was hard, or i wasn't good at i just quit to avoid embarrassing myself. and starting your own business means you can stand to lose a lot of money. and in my case, i'd be losing money i wouldn't have to begin with. so i suppose that's a more worthwhile thing to be scared of then just being embarassed. i guess i just need to grow some balls about this starting my own business thing. thank god for college, the socially acceptable way to put off deciding what to do with your life!