Why
I'm to the point of where I think life has no meaning or rhyme. Or it seems that way anyways.
I've been married for 3 years come Feb. 25th. Our marriage has had some wonderful parts to it and it has also had some really bad parts to it. I have worked hard on this marriage. I have been tempted maybe 3 times since me and Duffy got married and when I say tempted I'm talking about that I didn't go looking for it, the guys came to me. I could have 3 affairs by now but guess what, I didn't because I love my husband. He is very good to me.
Duffy and I have been doing to marriage counseling for the past 2 or 3 months now, how ever long it has been. We have been through a lot of trials through this marriage. We have both worked to be where we are.
I'm slightly getting annoyed at life.
Today I found out that one of my friends is pregnant. She just got engaged in the middle of September.
I'm annoyed.
Everyone knows how much I would love to have a little one. I think I've deserved it. I've been married for almost 3 years, we have been through trials, and things don't get resolved through counseling then we may not even be together anymore...then no kid at all, for at least probably another 5 to 10 years because I'll have to let my heart mend, maybe get back in to dating and then maybe get married again and then work on having children again, and I defintely don't want to go through the mess again.
I'm happy for Amy that she is pregnant, but then again I'm angry. Angry at life and maybe slightly jealous of Amy.
I've been married for 3 years come Feb. 25th. Our marriage has had some wonderful parts to it and it has also had some really bad parts to it. I have worked hard on this marriage. I have been tempted maybe 3 times since me and Duffy got married and when I say tempted I'm talking about that I didn't go looking for it, the guys came to me. I could have 3 affairs by now but guess what, I didn't because I love my husband. He is very good to me.
Duffy and I have been doing to marriage counseling for the past 2 or 3 months now, how ever long it has been. We have been through a lot of trials through this marriage. We have both worked to be where we are.
I'm slightly getting annoyed at life.
Today I found out that one of my friends is pregnant. She just got engaged in the middle of September.
I'm annoyed.
Everyone knows how much I would love to have a little one. I think I've deserved it. I've been married for almost 3 years, we have been through trials, and things don't get resolved through counseling then we may not even be together anymore...then no kid at all, for at least probably another 5 to 10 years because I'll have to let my heart mend, maybe get back in to dating and then maybe get married again and then work on having children again, and I defintely don't want to go through the mess again.
I'm happy for Amy that she is pregnant, but then again I'm angry. Angry at life and maybe slightly jealous of Amy.