This year...
I've been reviewing this year so far since in 4 more months 2009 will be here. I've found that 2008 has been one of the worst ones in a long lont time...probably since April passed away.
This year, I've found that I had developed hypothyrodism...which it is now back to normal, I've been having to deal with the issue of wanting a child but I can't have one because of money issues and I've developed the emotional issue as to where I want to cut and ice again..I've only iced once this year but I still have the urge sometimes. I've had a lot of toenail pain this year which it is getting removed next Friday, I've had to deal with my parents which it hasn't been fun. Mom and Dad were/are constantly fighting over one of dad's friends which is a slut and a bitch, and dad I noticed has drinked a lot more this year, I've had to deal with dad having a heart attack and he is still having chest pains once in a while. It hasn't been a great year...it has sucked.
The only good thing? My husband. I've been...angry with him a lot this year because of the child issue, but I realize it's not his fault. I'm just angry that there is nothing that can be done. The one thing I wish he would do? When I'm crying, I wish he would just hold me.
Last night I cried myself to sleep over the kid thing, and thinking about daddy because I don't think he is going to live much longer because of his health. Duffy knew I was crying, and he didn't hold me or touch me or anything...and I wish he would have. He may think I'm going to lean up and slap the hell out of him or something but I'm not...I just want him to hold me when I'm feeling so low about life.
The positive things that I know that are coming up? Big Spring Jam is towards the end of September. Fair will be in September too..and I'm probably going to be going to the beach the weekend before my birthday, woohoo.
This year, I've found that I had developed hypothyrodism...which it is now back to normal, I've been having to deal with the issue of wanting a child but I can't have one because of money issues and I've developed the emotional issue as to where I want to cut and ice again..I've only iced once this year but I still have the urge sometimes. I've had a lot of toenail pain this year which it is getting removed next Friday, I've had to deal with my parents which it hasn't been fun. Mom and Dad were/are constantly fighting over one of dad's friends which is a slut and a bitch, and dad I noticed has drinked a lot more this year, I've had to deal with dad having a heart attack and he is still having chest pains once in a while. It hasn't been a great year...it has sucked.
The only good thing? My husband. I've been...angry with him a lot this year because of the child issue, but I realize it's not his fault. I'm just angry that there is nothing that can be done. The one thing I wish he would do? When I'm crying, I wish he would just hold me.
Last night I cried myself to sleep over the kid thing, and thinking about daddy because I don't think he is going to live much longer because of his health. Duffy knew I was crying, and he didn't hold me or touch me or anything...and I wish he would have. He may think I'm going to lean up and slap the hell out of him or something but I'm not...I just want him to hold me when I'm feeling so low about life.
The positive things that I know that are coming up? Big Spring Jam is towards the end of September. Fair will be in September too..and I'm probably going to be going to the beach the weekend before my birthday, woohoo.