workin' on leavin' the livin'
first off before anyone thinks this is another laura is soooo melodramatic and hates her life sooooo much.... it's not. in fact these days it never is. i honestly love life. even the shit. i find ways to make it actually make me feel better in the longrun.... now and then it gets under my skin and venting is cathartic. okay? okay.
i work really fucking hard. i get paid minimum wage. i constantly get screwed on the scheduling. i constantly get shit from my idiot of a boss. there are a lot of things i like, primarily co workers that have helped me through some shitty times and i really enjoy working with, even with all the shit we have to deal with.
i just got through another horrible rush. once again scheduled alone. i close alone usually 4 out of 5 nights a week. and its fine i need the hours but these aren't long shifts and alone it ends up being a fair bit of work. if i was rewarded or recognized for all i put into this it would be one thing.... but instead it's just what i do wrong, what i fuck up... i don't know. i can't get anything anywhere else. im tired of doors slamming in my face. i'm tired of feeling like even the people that are supposed to give half a shit are the ones that are making things worse for me. im tired.
i work really fucking hard. i get paid minimum wage. i constantly get screwed on the scheduling. i constantly get shit from my idiot of a boss. there are a lot of things i like, primarily co workers that have helped me through some shitty times and i really enjoy working with, even with all the shit we have to deal with.
i just got through another horrible rush. once again scheduled alone. i close alone usually 4 out of 5 nights a week. and its fine i need the hours but these aren't long shifts and alone it ends up being a fair bit of work. if i was rewarded or recognized for all i put into this it would be one thing.... but instead it's just what i do wrong, what i fuck up... i don't know. i can't get anything anywhere else. im tired of doors slamming in my face. i'm tired of feeling like even the people that are supposed to give half a shit are the ones that are making things worse for me. im tired.