life is confusing...maybe i'm just confusing
i'm in kind of a strange mood. i want to do something...not sure what...just kinda wanting to do something. and my mind is somewhat subconsciously occupied by stuff and i wish i could figure out what's bothering me. i think i'm just already tired of overdrive and it's the second week of school. great.
at least the sun is shining in oxford this winter. and i love every bit of it.
i had my job interview today, and it went rather well, i think. i will know something by the end of the week.
so going back to my strange feeling today. i think that i'm just having a scared time right now. the future as i have thought of it my entire life (job, family, bills, etc.) is approaching faster than i can really handle. i'm not ready for all that. i know some of where i'm going and where i'd like to go, but when it all comes down to it, i don't really know what i want. do i have to make those decisions now.? i just feel overwhelmed by both life and all the problems that i want to fix. there's a gap between where i am and where i'm going, and i don't know how to bridge it. and my biggest, baddest fear of all is that i'll end up looking back on my life when i get old and realizing that it wasn't nearly as meaningful and productive as i'd hoped it would be.
so here's a word for today:
"have i not commanded you? be strong and courageous. do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go." joshua1:9
be brave, be strong,
lb
at least the sun is shining in oxford this winter. and i love every bit of it.
i had my job interview today, and it went rather well, i think. i will know something by the end of the week.
so going back to my strange feeling today. i think that i'm just having a scared time right now. the future as i have thought of it my entire life (job, family, bills, etc.) is approaching faster than i can really handle. i'm not ready for all that. i know some of where i'm going and where i'd like to go, but when it all comes down to it, i don't really know what i want. do i have to make those decisions now.? i just feel overwhelmed by both life and all the problems that i want to fix. there's a gap between where i am and where i'm going, and i don't know how to bridge it. and my biggest, baddest fear of all is that i'll end up looking back on my life when i get old and realizing that it wasn't nearly as meaningful and productive as i'd hoped it would be.
so here's a word for today:
"have i not commanded you? be strong and courageous. do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go." joshua1:9
be brave, be strong,
lb