wow...im almost 20...
well its been a long time since i journaled for the world to see...ive done a lot of private journaling on random topics that i couldnt talk to anyone about and they helped, but i figured i would start this again since i have a lot of time on my hands right now...so ive decided to reflect on this semester as it stands so far...Well i like all my profs...tho my stat prof is boring as heck...but its stat so i didnt expect much...animal science is fun and easy to get up for so ive been really good about going to class...cuz once im on campus i might as well stay there...communications is a blast and keeps me sane...its not a blow off class but its a subject where i can relax...then theres bio...the labs are WAY too long but the class is just as fun as i remembered it being at hs...tho i dont go as much as i should...and then theres o-chem...kinda sorta hard right now and sure to get harder as the semester goes on...but i love my prof and the labs are easy so its all good...my first round of tests went well...i made a's on all my tests that i know about...i still havent gotten my meats test back yet...we shall see...but im off to a good start at least...now on to other things lol
well its 12 days away from my b-day and ive been evaluating my life...the first 20 years...omg its insane that im about to turn 20...it just adds onto my pile of "im old"...dont ask it was a stupid analogy...but anyway...as things stand i have 6.7 ish years of school left should i make it into vet school...i have yet to have a relationship of any kind...not even a hint of one...and im ok with that as it stands...but i feel like im running out of time...its not true but it still feels like it...if u know me, u know that i want LOTS of kids...and i mean LOTS...as in 6...thats my magic number but anywhere in the area would be good...but that means i need to start having kids pretty soon...and i dont even have a boyfriend...and to tell you the truth im not ready yet...not quite...i need to get better with my relationship with God...and then ill be ready...but i dont even have male friends...to tell you the truth i dont have all that many friends at all...at least thats how it feels...again probably a misinterpritaion...but its how i feel currently...but back to the bf sitch...i just dont know...i dont mind not having a relationship...i certainly not actively looking for one...but i definately wouldnt mind it either...oh well...two decades and still so much to learn...ttyl
well its 12 days away from my b-day and ive been evaluating my life...the first 20 years...omg its insane that im about to turn 20...it just adds onto my pile of "im old"...dont ask it was a stupid analogy...but anyway...as things stand i have 6.7 ish years of school left should i make it into vet school...i have yet to have a relationship of any kind...not even a hint of one...and im ok with that as it stands...but i feel like im running out of time...its not true but it still feels like it...if u know me, u know that i want LOTS of kids...and i mean LOTS...as in 6...thats my magic number but anywhere in the area would be good...but that means i need to start having kids pretty soon...and i dont even have a boyfriend...and to tell you the truth im not ready yet...not quite...i need to get better with my relationship with God...and then ill be ready...but i dont even have male friends...to tell you the truth i dont have all that many friends at all...at least thats how it feels...again probably a misinterpritaion...but its how i feel currently...but back to the bf sitch...i just dont know...i dont mind not having a relationship...i certainly not actively looking for one...but i definately wouldnt mind it either...oh well...two decades and still so much to learn...ttyl