Feb 26, 2005 10:56
well i went up to taunton to see joe. he told my friend becca, who went with me, that he didn't want to lead me on. he didn't want to tell me himself. and then the night before last night i talked to him on the net and he was like we would be better as friends. i put myself out there for him to get hurt. now i know why i don't trust ppl. and its not like he even cares one bit that he hurt me. FUCK IT ALL! then i got in a fight with my mom this morning b/c she ate like all of my m&ms and supposedly she is on a diet. then she was like why don't we compare who gained more weight since we moved here. i was like YOU mom you gained more weight than me. and she was like no you gained more weight, you went from a size 2 to a 6. I WAS A SIZE 2 DURING SWIMMING. the size six is a little too big on me!! why does all the shit happen to me? i just want to crawl under a rock and cry. i don't want to talk to anyone just so i don't get hurt anymore.
<3
Laur
maybe i'll write more when i am in a better mood :-(