end the drama....please
C87swish: fuck off you drama queen. learn to understand that boys will use you and leave you the min they want. and get over yourself. its no wonder joe doesnt want you. but i dont want him like that either so if you think im competition, try again. have a great year!
you know what she is right. joe doesn't want me like i want him (as a boyfriend). it just sucks that i can only be his friend. i have treated him like shit all the time, every week its like its a new fight between me and him..i am just sick of who i am when i talk to him or when i am around him. i need to grow up. i guess i get to attached too quickly. no one will take this shit that i dish out in college. i will be single if i act like this next year. i guess he is the only one that gets me and has been there for me eventhough i have given him so much shit. and he texted me today when i told him that i was sorry and he said that he deals with it all the time with his sister...well i don't want him to have to deal with it from me along with his sister. i guess there is no simple way of putting this other than i need to get over him. he has been nothing but nice to me...given me so much...both $$ wise and emotionally..i guess i am just one screwed up person that i always argue with him. i don't want to i just get upset easily and i don't know why. i am just so frustrated right now with how i am acting towards ppl that i actually do care about and that care about me. i don't like to admit that ppl actually care about me. i am just not used to ppl caring about me i guess. and joe's friend jess I(Sorry jess) is the only one that understands where i am coming from with all of this. she is the only one i can really talk to, other than joe, when i am not mad at him. anyways when he and i tried to start over, i couldn't let go of the past no matter how much i told him i did..i didn't. I am just not myself anymore..ever since i moved to connecticut...in indiana i was the fun, down to earth girl that was always there for my friends when they needed me. i always managed to make thems smile when they were crying or having a bad day. HELL i would dance in the halls in order to make them smile..no matter how much of a damn fool i would look like. i need to find who i really am..sure cooking is what makes me happy but there is something else that is missing in my life that i had before i moved. its just been tooo long for me to find it. so leave me a comment to help me out. and if you read this joe...i am really and truly sorry for how i have treated you since february vacation. you don't know how much you have helped me through thick and thin. i am really sorry for giving you more drama in ur life. more than you already have right now.
i guess thats all for now..leave me love
<3 laur
you know what she is right. joe doesn't want me like i want him (as a boyfriend). it just sucks that i can only be his friend. i have treated him like shit all the time, every week its like its a new fight between me and him..i am just sick of who i am when i talk to him or when i am around him. i need to grow up. i guess i get to attached too quickly. no one will take this shit that i dish out in college. i will be single if i act like this next year. i guess he is the only one that gets me and has been there for me eventhough i have given him so much shit. and he texted me today when i told him that i was sorry and he said that he deals with it all the time with his sister...well i don't want him to have to deal with it from me along with his sister. i guess there is no simple way of putting this other than i need to get over him. he has been nothing but nice to me...given me so much...both $$ wise and emotionally..i guess i am just one screwed up person that i always argue with him. i don't want to i just get upset easily and i don't know why. i am just so frustrated right now with how i am acting towards ppl that i actually do care about and that care about me. i don't like to admit that ppl actually care about me. i am just not used to ppl caring about me i guess. and joe's friend jess I(Sorry jess) is the only one that understands where i am coming from with all of this. she is the only one i can really talk to, other than joe, when i am not mad at him. anyways when he and i tried to start over, i couldn't let go of the past no matter how much i told him i did..i didn't. I am just not myself anymore..ever since i moved to connecticut...in indiana i was the fun, down to earth girl that was always there for my friends when they needed me. i always managed to make thems smile when they were crying or having a bad day. HELL i would dance in the halls in order to make them smile..no matter how much of a damn fool i would look like. i need to find who i really am..sure cooking is what makes me happy but there is something else that is missing in my life that i had before i moved. its just been tooo long for me to find it. so leave me a comment to help me out. and if you read this joe...i am really and truly sorry for how i have treated you since february vacation. you don't know how much you have helped me through thick and thin. i am really sorry for giving you more drama in ur life. more than you already have right now.
i guess thats all for now..leave me love
<3 laur