On the Cards [self-therapy]
As a tarot reader, I find using the cards a good way of helping me see things that I'm otherwise too close to see. However, right now I just can't use my deck for myself. The other week I borrowed a deck of The Fairy Pack from the local library. When confusion and despair came on about my sexual frustration, I tried a reading with them.
Actually, even though this deck seems wonderful, and I put the cards aside in the same order so that I could refer to them later, when I took them out this morning they seemed very "flat". That being the case I drew three cards from Virtue's Magical Mermaids and Dolphins deck, and you know what? It said (more or less) the same things! The reading was:
BLESSED CHANGE:
A major life change brings you great blessings.
FATHER HEALING:
Your personal power increases as you give any father-related issues to Heaven.
STAY OPTIMISTIC:
Your dreams are coming true. Don't quit right before the miracle occurs.
So what the fuck is "Father Healing"? The book says:
This card shows you that you still have some father issues left to heal. The healing doesn't need to take a lot of time - it simply requires your willingness to be free of any old anger, grief, or fear related to your male parent.
Universal energies are either male or female. Male energy is expansive and giving. Female energy is nurturing and receptive. If we're unhealed with
respect to our father, the Universe seems to be ungenerous. If we're unhealed toward our mother, we won't accept the gifts the Universe offers us.
The more you focus on the spiritual truth of your father, the more your heart will be receptive to the Universe's continuous and all-encompassing
giving. Accept your rightful bounty, and open your arms to your Divine inheritance. Affirm: "I now focus on the love that is the spiritual truth of my father, and I hereby balance any karma between us. I now let go of everything but the love and the lessons of my relationship with my father.
Oh-kay - not quite my idea of the difference between God and Goddess, but at least I can understand what she's saying (just as well I never bought the Angel Deck, though).
So, am I still locked into old anger, grief, or fear? Maybe so. It's always hard to let go. I can never consciously do this, because it retains focus on the crap I want to let go off. Rather, what works for me is embracing new stuff that fills the gaps the other stuff leaves. Does that sound reasonable?