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you always cry on your birthday but this year its the day after. this morning i woke up in a good mood but then got in a stupid argument with my mum, which isnt worth explaining. so i kinda left school on bad terms with her. i'm trying to be normal with her tonight but she's in a funny mood with me, she is doing the thing were she acts like nothings wrong but shes not being friendly and normal so i know there is, i know i am not explaining this write but oh well. i just wish that my dad was here cos then i wudnt feel on edge in the house like i do at the moment, i wanna call him but last time i did that when i was upset with mum she got even more cross with me. she is blantantly ignoring me but trying to do it in an unobvious way so it sucks. its silly times like these when i cry over nothing and wish my dad wasnt in london most the week. he's the peace settler between me and mum but hes not here to do that most the time anymore and it sucks. i hate getting myself wound up over nothing but i cant help it...