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single? yes
if not, do you want to be? not really
age: seventeen
age you act: depends, i think usually my age
age you wish you were: if it meant i could do everything over again, i'd go for eleven. if not, i'd stick with seventeen
height: almost five-eight
eye color: oh so green
happy with it? i just like being irish. i used to wish they were blue, but i'm cool with my eye color, considering i can't do much to change it and it doesn't really matter
hair color: brown
happy with it? i wish it was darker. i also wish i had red hair, if i wouldn't look hideous with it
lefty/righty/ambidextrous: right
your living arrangement: home with mom, dad, clare, and zeek
your family: already mentioned
have any pets? just zeek, the best dog ever
whats your job? nothing at the moment
piercings? ears
tattoos? not yet. soon, hopefully
obsessions? can't think of anything. not nearly as obsessed with alias as i used to be, but my amazing race addiction grows daily
addictions? hot chocolate, driving
do you speak another language? sadly, no
do you live in the moment? no
do you consider yourself tolerant of others? yes
do you have any secrets? yes
do you hate yourself? i hate the way i act on a daily basis lately, but i don't hate myself
do you like your handwriting? i can deal with it
do you have any bad habits? obsessing/worrying about things that i can't do anything about or that will never change, letting things bother me that shouldn't
what is the compliment you get from most people? that i'm tall, which isn't a compliment, it's more like stating the obvious
if a movie was made about your life, what would it be called? there shouldn't be a movie made about my life
what's your biggest fear? not doing anything meaningful
can you sing? in the shower
do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool? no
are you a loner? sometimes
what are your #1 priorities in life? i don't really know.
if you were another person, would you be friends with you? dumb question and it's always on these things
are you a daredevil? not really, but i'm not scared to take risks either
is there anything you fear or hate about yourself? lots of things
are you passive or aggressive? both
do you have a journal? several
what is your greatest strength? i've been told listening, but i don't know about that, i used to think i was a really good friend, but i don't know about that either.
and weakness? being bothered by silly things, often i'm too private
if you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? more outgoing
do you think you are emotionally strong? stronger than i appear
is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life? basically all of middle school and freshman year, i hate thinking about then. i regret not doing track last year.
do you think life has been good so far? better than most
what is the most important lesson you've learned from life? i don't know that i've really learned anything from life. or, maybe i've learned everything i know from life? i know that you can't always get what you want, i know that things are rarely as perfect as they appear from the outside, i know that your past always stays with you...
what do you like the most about your body? legs
and least? i really hate my eyebrows. i don't particularly love my butt or face. eww feet.
do you think you are confident? enough
what is the fictional character you are most like? none that i know of
are you perceived wrongly? sometimes
do you...
smoke? not anymore
do drugs? not anymore
read the newspaper? almost daily
pray? sometimes
go to church? yes
talk to strangers who im you? not unless i know who they are, which wouldn't make them strangers so, no.
sleep with stuffed animals? not anymore
take walks in the rain? i love to run in the rain when it's not really cold.
talk to people even though you hate them? i don't hate anyone, except for maybe bert and i think that if i ever talked to him again i would grow out of my hatred of him.
drive? yes
like to drive fast? yes
would or have you ever?
hurt yourself? not really
been out of the country? yes
eaten something that made other people sick? i don't think so.
been in love? yes
done drugs? yes
gone skinny dipping? yes
had a medical emergency? no
had surgery? on my toe
ran away from home? i've tried
played strip poker? yes
gotten beaten up? no
beaten someone up? no
been picked on? yes
been on stage? not in front of a lot of people unless you count band concerts
slept outdoors? yes
thought about suicide? yes
pulled an all nighter? many
gone one day without food? yes
talked on the phone all night? no
slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex? yes
slept all day? while in catch-up mode
killed someone? no
thought you're going crazy? yes
kissed the same sex? no
done anything sexual with the same sex? no
been betrayed? haven't we all
had a dream that came true? hopefully not
met a famous person? not really
have you ever killed an animal by accident? no, i've only killed bugs and i do that on purpose
on purpose? bugs
told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell? no
stolen anything? yes
been on radio/tv? no
been in a mosh-pit? no
had a nervous breakdown? ugh
bungee jumped? no
had a dream that kept coming back? yes, several
beliefs
believe in life on other planets? never thought much about it and i basically know nothing about it, but i suppose there is life on earth, why not elsewhere?
miracles? yes
astrology? ha, no
magic? no
god? something like god
satan? not sure
santa? no
ghosts? not sure
luck? no
love at first sight? yes
witches? no
easter bunny? i've been the easter bunny since sixth grade
believe its possible to remain faithful forever? yes
believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow? depends
deep theological questions
do you believe in the traditional view of heaven and hell? no
do you think god has a gender? never thought about it
do you believe in organized religion? for some
where do you think we go when we die? not sure
friends
do you have any gay/lesbian friends? not really
who's the one person that knows most about you? me
what's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you? i don't recall any really good advice, i don't usually consult people for important advice
your favorite inside joke? the laundromat, at the moment
thing you're picked on most about? being stupid or sensitive or being a teenager, depending on who is picking on me
who's your longest known friend? i haven't kept friends really, michelle or lauren maybe
newest? ha...no idea
shyest? lily
funniest? william?
sweetest? ha, none of them are sweet
closest? no idea
weirdest? leigh, william
smartest? william
friends you miss being close to the most? all of them
last person you talked to online? leigh
who do you talk to most online? katherin
who are you on the phone with most? brian
who do you trust most? i trust most of my friends the same
who listens to your problems? jill
who do you fight most with? william, my dad
who's the nicest? katherin
who's the most outgoing? william
who's the best singer? leigh in her opera man voice
who's on your shit-list? i don't have on
have you ever thought of having sex with a friend? no
who's your second family? none
do you always feel understood? i rarely feel understood
who's the loudest friend? william
do you trust others easily? no
who's house were you last at? the stearns'
name one person who's arms you feel safe in: my mom
do your friends know you? not lately
friend that lives farthest away: erin
love and all that
do you consider love a mistake? sometimes
what do you find romantic? all that old fashioned stuff
turn-on? good hair
turn-off? mean people
first kiss? tyler potz in first grade or ben richards in sixth
do you prefer knowing someone before dating them? umm...yes
have you ever wished it was more socially acceptable for a girl to ask a guy out? not really
have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive? no, i wouldn't be attracted to them if i found them completely physically unattractive, but i'm not too picky on that front, i just like people to be clean
do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking? no
what is best about the opposite sex? depends on the person
what is the worst thing about the opposite sex? depends on the person
what's the last present someone gave you? my mom claims the scarf she gave me in december was a valentines day present, which is dumb because she's never given me a valentines day present before why start something so dumb now
are you in love? ...
who was the last person...
that haunted you? don't know his name
you wanted to kill? no one
you went shopping with? i went grocery shopping with lauren, lily, and katherin
to disappoint you? myself
to make you cry? i'd rather not say
to brighten up your day? sunshine
that you thought about? leigh, because i am talking to her right now
you saw a movie with? leigh, alyssa, emma, and shannon
you talked to on the phone? leigh
you saw? my mom
on saturday, i went to the basketball game with lauren and lily, where lauren ditched us and then lily and i went to the hockey game and we won both, whee. then i came home, for lack of anything else worth doing to do.
sunday, i went to church and my mom thought there was no sunday school but there so was, which wasn't too cool because she happens to be a sunday school teacher. anyway, all went fine because no one seemed to care when we just came for church. for some reason, it was unbearable and it might have been because i was wearing my glasses but i'm not sure why it was such a problem. after church, clare and i went to bagel one and then to friendly's for lunch. we stopped at the stearns's because i wanted ma stearns to see clare and clare to see rob and i wanted to see leigh, but ma stearns was not there and rob and clare didn't want to see each other and i left only to come back three hours later to sit in leigh's room for an hour because no one really knew where she was. she was in the basement, but you know whatever. i should have looked there, but instead i read a book in her room and sat with ada, aieee. i'm not sure how we spent our time but we eventually watched caddyshack, which was entertaining and made blts. things went downhill very fast for no real reason and did not improve when i returned home. it was not an enjoyable night.
this morning, it snowed like whoa. my dad and clare were supposed to leave bright and early, but then i would not have gotten to say goodbye. and my dad plowed the driveway, which was excellent and i got to say goodbye to clare. and i bummed around and showered and eventually went to the library with katherin, which was not open, duh. and katherin thinks i can't drive, sadly, but it's not true! since i couldn't go to the library, i went to the stearns's and watched the ending of beauty and the beast with leigh, alyssa, shannon, and emma. it was quite nice. and then leigh cut my hair. and then i read some of her scary book, which i know i'll have to read all of now, aye yae yae. and then we made blts and this time i put turkey in mine and it was delicious, not that they aren't always delicious. i also burnt toast and got to feed it to skuttle and susan and susan was so cute and dainty and skuttle just wolfed it down, also very cutely. and then i went home to my mom because she was all alone. and when i pulled in, she was walking zeek up the driveway and "the chain" was on the radio and it was one of those inexplicable perfect moments. i love that song and i should buy a fleetwood mac cd after i buy all of billy joel. because billy joel is for sale. whatever.
anyway, i hope to work away tomorrow and then go out to lunch and then work away and then go to providence on wednesday and then work forever. and i guess no new york. hotmail is pissing me off with this consistent need for me to sign in, what's the point of having an auto login option? my mom is going to burlington at some point. anyway, i should sleep and awaken early to run.
zeek is hitting my arm and making me screw up typing and she is so cute.
if not, do you want to be? not really
age: seventeen
age you act: depends, i think usually my age
age you wish you were: if it meant i could do everything over again, i'd go for eleven. if not, i'd stick with seventeen
height: almost five-eight
eye color: oh so green
happy with it? i just like being irish. i used to wish they were blue, but i'm cool with my eye color, considering i can't do much to change it and it doesn't really matter
hair color: brown
happy with it? i wish it was darker. i also wish i had red hair, if i wouldn't look hideous with it
lefty/righty/ambidextrous: right
your living arrangement: home with mom, dad, clare, and zeek
your family: already mentioned
have any pets? just zeek, the best dog ever
whats your job? nothing at the moment
piercings? ears
tattoos? not yet. soon, hopefully
obsessions? can't think of anything. not nearly as obsessed with alias as i used to be, but my amazing race addiction grows daily
addictions? hot chocolate, driving
do you speak another language? sadly, no
do you live in the moment? no
do you consider yourself tolerant of others? yes
do you have any secrets? yes
do you hate yourself? i hate the way i act on a daily basis lately, but i don't hate myself
do you like your handwriting? i can deal with it
do you have any bad habits? obsessing/worrying about things that i can't do anything about or that will never change, letting things bother me that shouldn't
what is the compliment you get from most people? that i'm tall, which isn't a compliment, it's more like stating the obvious
if a movie was made about your life, what would it be called? there shouldn't be a movie made about my life
what's your biggest fear? not doing anything meaningful
can you sing? in the shower
do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool? no
are you a loner? sometimes
what are your #1 priorities in life? i don't really know.
if you were another person, would you be friends with you? dumb question and it's always on these things
are you a daredevil? not really, but i'm not scared to take risks either
is there anything you fear or hate about yourself? lots of things
are you passive or aggressive? both
do you have a journal? several
what is your greatest strength? i've been told listening, but i don't know about that, i used to think i was a really good friend, but i don't know about that either.
and weakness? being bothered by silly things, often i'm too private
if you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? more outgoing
do you think you are emotionally strong? stronger than i appear
is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life? basically all of middle school and freshman year, i hate thinking about then. i regret not doing track last year.
do you think life has been good so far? better than most
what is the most important lesson you've learned from life? i don't know that i've really learned anything from life. or, maybe i've learned everything i know from life? i know that you can't always get what you want, i know that things are rarely as perfect as they appear from the outside, i know that your past always stays with you...
what do you like the most about your body? legs
and least? i really hate my eyebrows. i don't particularly love my butt or face. eww feet.
do you think you are confident? enough
what is the fictional character you are most like? none that i know of
are you perceived wrongly? sometimes
do you...
smoke? not anymore
do drugs? not anymore
read the newspaper? almost daily
pray? sometimes
go to church? yes
talk to strangers who im you? not unless i know who they are, which wouldn't make them strangers so, no.
sleep with stuffed animals? not anymore
take walks in the rain? i love to run in the rain when it's not really cold.
talk to people even though you hate them? i don't hate anyone, except for maybe bert and i think that if i ever talked to him again i would grow out of my hatred of him.
drive? yes
like to drive fast? yes
would or have you ever?
hurt yourself? not really
been out of the country? yes
eaten something that made other people sick? i don't think so.
been in love? yes
done drugs? yes
gone skinny dipping? yes
had a medical emergency? no
had surgery? on my toe
ran away from home? i've tried
played strip poker? yes
gotten beaten up? no
beaten someone up? no
been picked on? yes
been on stage? not in front of a lot of people unless you count band concerts
slept outdoors? yes
thought about suicide? yes
pulled an all nighter? many
gone one day without food? yes
talked on the phone all night? no
slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex? yes
slept all day? while in catch-up mode
killed someone? no
thought you're going crazy? yes
kissed the same sex? no
done anything sexual with the same sex? no
been betrayed? haven't we all
had a dream that came true? hopefully not
met a famous person? not really
have you ever killed an animal by accident? no, i've only killed bugs and i do that on purpose
on purpose? bugs
told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell? no
stolen anything? yes
been on radio/tv? no
been in a mosh-pit? no
had a nervous breakdown? ugh
bungee jumped? no
had a dream that kept coming back? yes, several
beliefs
believe in life on other planets? never thought much about it and i basically know nothing about it, but i suppose there is life on earth, why not elsewhere?
miracles? yes
astrology? ha, no
magic? no
god? something like god
satan? not sure
santa? no
ghosts? not sure
luck? no
love at first sight? yes
witches? no
easter bunny? i've been the easter bunny since sixth grade
believe its possible to remain faithful forever? yes
believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow? depends
deep theological questions
do you believe in the traditional view of heaven and hell? no
do you think god has a gender? never thought about it
do you believe in organized religion? for some
where do you think we go when we die? not sure
friends
do you have any gay/lesbian friends? not really
who's the one person that knows most about you? me
what's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you? i don't recall any really good advice, i don't usually consult people for important advice
your favorite inside joke? the laundromat, at the moment
thing you're picked on most about? being stupid or sensitive or being a teenager, depending on who is picking on me
who's your longest known friend? i haven't kept friends really, michelle or lauren maybe
newest? ha...no idea
shyest? lily
funniest? william?
sweetest? ha, none of them are sweet
closest? no idea
weirdest? leigh, william
smartest? william
friends you miss being close to the most? all of them
last person you talked to online? leigh
who do you talk to most online? katherin
who are you on the phone with most? brian
who do you trust most? i trust most of my friends the same
who listens to your problems? jill
who do you fight most with? william, my dad
who's the nicest? katherin
who's the most outgoing? william
who's the best singer? leigh in her opera man voice
who's on your shit-list? i don't have on
have you ever thought of having sex with a friend? no
who's your second family? none
do you always feel understood? i rarely feel understood
who's the loudest friend? william
do you trust others easily? no
who's house were you last at? the stearns'
name one person who's arms you feel safe in: my mom
do your friends know you? not lately
friend that lives farthest away: erin
love and all that
do you consider love a mistake? sometimes
what do you find romantic? all that old fashioned stuff
turn-on? good hair
turn-off? mean people
first kiss? tyler potz in first grade or ben richards in sixth
do you prefer knowing someone before dating them? umm...yes
have you ever wished it was more socially acceptable for a girl to ask a guy out? not really
have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive? no, i wouldn't be attracted to them if i found them completely physically unattractive, but i'm not too picky on that front, i just like people to be clean
do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking? no
what is best about the opposite sex? depends on the person
what is the worst thing about the opposite sex? depends on the person
what's the last present someone gave you? my mom claims the scarf she gave me in december was a valentines day present, which is dumb because she's never given me a valentines day present before why start something so dumb now
are you in love? ...
who was the last person...
that haunted you? don't know his name
you wanted to kill? no one
you went shopping with? i went grocery shopping with lauren, lily, and katherin
to disappoint you? myself
to make you cry? i'd rather not say
to brighten up your day? sunshine
that you thought about? leigh, because i am talking to her right now
you saw a movie with? leigh, alyssa, emma, and shannon
you talked to on the phone? leigh
you saw? my mom
on saturday, i went to the basketball game with lauren and lily, where lauren ditched us and then lily and i went to the hockey game and we won both, whee. then i came home, for lack of anything else worth doing to do.
sunday, i went to church and my mom thought there was no sunday school but there so was, which wasn't too cool because she happens to be a sunday school teacher. anyway, all went fine because no one seemed to care when we just came for church. for some reason, it was unbearable and it might have been because i was wearing my glasses but i'm not sure why it was such a problem. after church, clare and i went to bagel one and then to friendly's for lunch. we stopped at the stearns's because i wanted ma stearns to see clare and clare to see rob and i wanted to see leigh, but ma stearns was not there and rob and clare didn't want to see each other and i left only to come back three hours later to sit in leigh's room for an hour because no one really knew where she was. she was in the basement, but you know whatever. i should have looked there, but instead i read a book in her room and sat with ada, aieee. i'm not sure how we spent our time but we eventually watched caddyshack, which was entertaining and made blts. things went downhill very fast for no real reason and did not improve when i returned home. it was not an enjoyable night.
this morning, it snowed like whoa. my dad and clare were supposed to leave bright and early, but then i would not have gotten to say goodbye. and my dad plowed the driveway, which was excellent and i got to say goodbye to clare. and i bummed around and showered and eventually went to the library with katherin, which was not open, duh. and katherin thinks i can't drive, sadly, but it's not true! since i couldn't go to the library, i went to the stearns's and watched the ending of beauty and the beast with leigh, alyssa, shannon, and emma. it was quite nice. and then leigh cut my hair. and then i read some of her scary book, which i know i'll have to read all of now, aye yae yae. and then we made blts and this time i put turkey in mine and it was delicious, not that they aren't always delicious. i also burnt toast and got to feed it to skuttle and susan and susan was so cute and dainty and skuttle just wolfed it down, also very cutely. and then i went home to my mom because she was all alone. and when i pulled in, she was walking zeek up the driveway and "the chain" was on the radio and it was one of those inexplicable perfect moments. i love that song and i should buy a fleetwood mac cd after i buy all of billy joel. because billy joel is for sale. whatever.
anyway, i hope to work away tomorrow and then go out to lunch and then work away and then go to providence on wednesday and then work forever. and i guess no new york. hotmail is pissing me off with this consistent need for me to sign in, what's the point of having an auto login option? my mom is going to burlington at some point. anyway, i should sleep and awaken early to run.
zeek is hitting my arm and making me screw up typing and she is so cute.