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it felt so good to get all that stuff off my chest. thanks litbit and nicole for listening to me. and even though it still haunts me, it helps to know that yall will totally be there for me when whatever happens actually happens. and thanks for not making me feel stupid.
i hope jenny had a great time on her trip, i still gotta call her. i'm really bad at that.
eddie called me on saturday. he's in alabama for good, lucy is at LSU, and natalie is in california. everyone is gone! i finally actually make friends with some ME's, rather than EE's, and now they're gone. maybe next semester will be different. at least i still have my girls. i am so jealous of everyone who got to continue going to school like normal. calculus jason is alive! i talked to him like 2 weeks ago, and i was so happy when i did, because i was so worried that he and his grandma hadn't evacuated and that they might have died or something. but they did evacuate and he's all good, so i'm happy.
tomorrow is going to be jason and i's six month anniversary. it's still wierd when i think about it. kinda scary too. but my family doesn't know it's our 6 months, and jason has off work on wednesday, and i was so excited cause we were planning on going up to baton rouge so i could buy him his present and we'd spend the day together and all. but then i remembered that i had told my parents that i would help them stand in line for the whole red cross money thing that starts wednesday (and you have to get in line by tuesday night if you want a spot). and they really do need my help because my little sister starts at rummel on wednesday, so it'll be crazy!!!! so i really really really want to spend the day with jason and all cause it'll be our special day, but then i have this horrible obligation to my family and i don't know what to do yet.
i am a terrible friend. talk about out of sight, out of mind. like if i were friends with me, i would totally end that friendship because i suck at communicating. and it's not because i don't want to, it's just because it just doesn't happen. which is ultimately my fault. but i don't want to have my friendships die because of my own stupid habits. and i'm sorry to jenny and monica for that. and to lauren and nicole for that.
i hope jenny had a great time on her trip, i still gotta call her. i'm really bad at that.
eddie called me on saturday. he's in alabama for good, lucy is at LSU, and natalie is in california. everyone is gone! i finally actually make friends with some ME's, rather than EE's, and now they're gone. maybe next semester will be different. at least i still have my girls. i am so jealous of everyone who got to continue going to school like normal. calculus jason is alive! i talked to him like 2 weeks ago, and i was so happy when i did, because i was so worried that he and his grandma hadn't evacuated and that they might have died or something. but they did evacuate and he's all good, so i'm happy.
tomorrow is going to be jason and i's six month anniversary. it's still wierd when i think about it. kinda scary too. but my family doesn't know it's our 6 months, and jason has off work on wednesday, and i was so excited cause we were planning on going up to baton rouge so i could buy him his present and we'd spend the day together and all. but then i remembered that i had told my parents that i would help them stand in line for the whole red cross money thing that starts wednesday (and you have to get in line by tuesday night if you want a spot). and they really do need my help because my little sister starts at rummel on wednesday, so it'll be crazy!!!! so i really really really want to spend the day with jason and all cause it'll be our special day, but then i have this horrible obligation to my family and i don't know what to do yet.
i am a terrible friend. talk about out of sight, out of mind. like if i were friends with me, i would totally end that friendship because i suck at communicating. and it's not because i don't want to, it's just because it just doesn't happen. which is ultimately my fault. but i don't want to have my friendships die because of my own stupid habits. and i'm sorry to jenny and monica for that. and to lauren and nicole for that.