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If one thing in my life is constant, its the reaction I have when things like this happen. The second brittney told me i just froze, I had no idea what to do, I still don't really know what to do. I think emily said it best, we were friends in passing, Everytime i saw him, he insisted on a hug, always made sure to say hello, and make me laugh, no matter what. The first night i met him at the diner with chris, i thought about how great he was. And talking to James today it made me realize that things wont be the same. For a while, everyone will be sad. And for the rest of peoples lives they will have to think, "I wonder what Shawn could have done" instead of "I wonder what Shawns doing", and that scares me so much. Nothing will be the same, and I feel so terribly bad for people close to him because i know how it feels to lose some one close, i did it 3 years ago. The memories of how i felt are still in my mind, and thats what makes me more upset, because i know how the people close to me are feeling. I do. And out of everything, being there for my friends is the best thing i can do right now. I just hope that Emily is right, Shawn is hanging out at the large bar, known as heaven, cracking jokes, and being himself.
Shawn *12/5/04*
Shawn *12/5/04*