A bloody monday....*sigh*
I'm just the girl next door. No license, no special car. I don't ware expensive clothes and i'd rather had my hair just thrown up in a pony tail. I have a dog and chickens. I go to church on Sunday and love god with all my heart. I get average grades. I have an average lifestyle. I don't really play sports or have any really interesting hobbies.I don't have a great boyfriend that gives me special attention. I listen to oldies and have had my share of heart break. But unlike the girl next door i have something special. That time of each day when I get to be in someone else's shoes. Acting. When you act you have to leave all thoughts of who you are personaly and completely give in to the character which you are portraying. You're life doesn't exsist. Not anymore. The people who you knew up to this point no longer exsist and all you know are the words you say when interacting with different characters and the places you go are only the ones specified by the ones in the script. It's my favorite part of the day. Stepping out of my life and thinking, moving, talking like someone else. I'm typing this at school because i dont have a 6th hour and have to stay after school. I feel like rambling so if anyone reads all the way through this, good for you, if no one does and no one comments, that's fine too. Just emptying my mind. I have a weding in Oct. that I have to go to and need a date for. Not beacuse I really want one, but becasue i need to have one or there wil literally be an empty place next to me at the table and crap. October 15th. Also is homecoming comign up. Now i'm not really going to be SUPER diaapointed if I don't have a date for that, in fact, that's perfectly fine. I don't have a dress yet, but i'm going to buy something that I can wear for singing in the weding too. *Smart money tip: use the dress for both!* So school has pretty much been a drag. Ever since pretty mcuh the end of summer and all I don't really know what's going on with me and the male species lol. I like people but no one is looking for somethign that will last. and they say I'm young and that I'm going to enjoy single life sooo much after high school, and that may be true! but right now I just want someone stable who cares about me to be there. Not as just a friend. You cant make a hug last more than 10 seconds with a friend and not look suspitious or be weird. You can't hold hands with a friend and get the sma ecomfort. It's just diferent. Say what you want, but to me it's true. School is a lot of fircken work and very stressful. Ugh. I'll type more late prob.