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this is the worst that i have ever felt in my life. the people that i thought i would be able to turn to if i needed them probably aren't there now. i did what i feel was best for me. i feel lost and helpless and don't know what to do. i feel horrible for causing so much pain and miserable in both of our bodies and minds. i am sure one day this will be easier, but right now it sucks. i wish i knew what to say or do to help any of the pain or helplessness go away for both of us. i wish i knew. i am so sorry. forever and ever i will be so sorry. i am so fucking sorry.