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It's really hard to see that you could be having something right now, but because of some twist of fate, you're stuck without it. I know that I could/could've have/had something, but because of the situation/event that happened, this thing will never happen... I would go into detail, but I've had bad experiences with that, and I dont want to hurt more people (as this issue involves many people).
But dont you just hate it when you could have something... but something else happens that prevents that thing from happening? Like everything is coming down to an event, and you're so excited, and then something stands in your way? I know that by not having/being at this event has completely changed who I am and how I feel about many people... but it just makes me think.
I was talking to a friend about this situation on monday, and he made me realize that its probably a good thing that everything turned out this way. but... I just cant help but wondering if things would have been different... Would I also have been hurt this badly? Would I be going through the same amount of pain as I'm going through now?
I just want to say to the friend I was talking to on Monday: "Thank you so much. It made me realize many things. Thanks for listening."
Also, I'm reading my firends' LJs', and I see that so many people are sad or in fights... I just want to give everyone a BIG HUG. I know that a lot of people need one of those now. Yes, even you reading this now. You need a hug too.
- Laur -