It's 5:16am

[laur_15]

I really think that I need to stop sleeping during the early night because I'm never going to get any sleep this way. It's 5:16 in the morning and thank god that Kurt is up or I would be going crazy. I just have a lot on my mind right now. With finals only bein one week awake I have a lot of studying to do. I just want to kill myself right now though. I am so lost in my own heart. I just can't wait till Christmas break to find out what it's going to be like with me being their. I mean are we going to see each other or are we just going to not see each other? Who knows what will happen but if nothing happen I'll be done forever and there will never be you and me again nor will I be your friend. I can't be a friend to you when I'm in love with you. It's to hard.

I gotta go.

Love,
Laur