SO DON'T FORGET ABOUT US
I HAVE SO MANY DIFFERENT EMOTIONS RIGHT NOW, EVERYTHING IS JUST SO OVERWHELMING ANYMORE...
EVEN THOUGH I'M REALLY ENJOYING JUST BEING ME RIGHT NOW. I'M DOING WELL IN SCHOOL, MAKING FRIENDS, HANGING OUT WITH PEOPLE, JUST DOING THINGS THAT I SHOULD BE DOING.I'M STARTING TO GET BUSY AGAIN, WHICH IS GOOD. I LIKE BEING BUSY, HAVING TIME TO MYSELF MAKES ME THINK ABOUT THINGS TO MUCH.EXAMPLE: NOW.
OKAY SO LETS FACE IT, WE'VE CHANGED. WE'VE ALL CHANGED. HEARTS WERE BROKEN, FRIENDS DIMINISHED, NEW LOVE STARTED & NEW PEOPLE CAME INTO OUR LIVES. WE NO LONGER SPEND ALL OF OUR TIME IN OUR CIRCLE OF FRIENDS, WE NO LONGER TALK FOR HOURS ABOUT NOTHING AT ALL. WE'VE CHANGED; SOME FOR THE BETTER SOME FOR THE WORSE. SOME OF US ARE FINDING LOVE & OTHERS ARE TRYING TO LET GO. EVEN THOUGH WE'VE CHANGED AND WE'RE ALL FINDING OUR OWN PLACE IN THE WORLD WE ALL KNOW THAT WHEN THE TEARS FALL OR THE HAPPY SMILE SPREADS ACROSS OUR FACE, WE'LL COME TO EACH OTHER BECAUSE NO MATTER WHERE THIS CRAZY WORLD TAKES US NOTHING WILL EVER CHANGE SO MUCH TO THE POINT WHERE WE'RE NOT ALL STILL FRIENDS.
I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY ANYMORE EXCEPT THAT I MISS HIM. AND I KNOW I SHOULDN'T, BUT OF COURSE I DO.DAMNIT.& EVEN THOUGH I MISS HIM AT THE SAME TIME I'M COMPLETLY OVER HIM.AND WITH THAT SAID IT FEELS SO GOOD TO BE OVER HIM. IT'S SO NICE TO REALIZE THAT I CAN KNOW THAT IF HE'S OUT WITH ANOTHER GIRL THAT IT DOESN'T/WON'T EVEN BOTHER ME ONE BIT.SOMETHING INSIDE OF ME SNAPPED AND I REALIZED THAT I JUST CAN'T CARE ANYMORE. IT'S NOT WORTH MY TIME. WE AREN'T US ANYMORE & I CAN'T KEEP PRETENDING WE ARE.
SO, NOW I'VE LEARNED THROUGH EXPERIENCE THAT; SOMETIMES LIFE KICKS YOU WHEN YOU'RE DOWN. AND OTHER TIMES, IT REALLY CATCHES YOU OFF GUARD. TONIGHT MADE ME REALIZE TWO THINGS:
-LIFE CAN AND WILL GET BETTER
-THE WORDS "I LOVE YOU" MEAN NOTHING ANYMORE.
THE END.
EVEN THOUGH I'M REALLY ENJOYING JUST BEING ME RIGHT NOW. I'M DOING WELL IN SCHOOL, MAKING FRIENDS, HANGING OUT WITH PEOPLE, JUST DOING THINGS THAT I SHOULD BE DOING.I'M STARTING TO GET BUSY AGAIN, WHICH IS GOOD. I LIKE BEING BUSY, HAVING TIME TO MYSELF MAKES ME THINK ABOUT THINGS TO MUCH.EXAMPLE: NOW.
OKAY SO LETS FACE IT, WE'VE CHANGED. WE'VE ALL CHANGED. HEARTS WERE BROKEN, FRIENDS DIMINISHED, NEW LOVE STARTED & NEW PEOPLE CAME INTO OUR LIVES. WE NO LONGER SPEND ALL OF OUR TIME IN OUR CIRCLE OF FRIENDS, WE NO LONGER TALK FOR HOURS ABOUT NOTHING AT ALL. WE'VE CHANGED; SOME FOR THE BETTER SOME FOR THE WORSE. SOME OF US ARE FINDING LOVE & OTHERS ARE TRYING TO LET GO. EVEN THOUGH WE'VE CHANGED AND WE'RE ALL FINDING OUR OWN PLACE IN THE WORLD WE ALL KNOW THAT WHEN THE TEARS FALL OR THE HAPPY SMILE SPREADS ACROSS OUR FACE, WE'LL COME TO EACH OTHER BECAUSE NO MATTER WHERE THIS CRAZY WORLD TAKES US NOTHING WILL EVER CHANGE SO MUCH TO THE POINT WHERE WE'RE NOT ALL STILL FRIENDS.
I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY ANYMORE EXCEPT THAT I MISS HIM. AND I KNOW I SHOULDN'T, BUT OF COURSE I DO.DAMNIT.& EVEN THOUGH I MISS HIM AT THE SAME TIME I'M COMPLETLY OVER HIM.AND WITH THAT SAID IT FEELS SO GOOD TO BE OVER HIM. IT'S SO NICE TO REALIZE THAT I CAN KNOW THAT IF HE'S OUT WITH ANOTHER GIRL THAT IT DOESN'T/WON'T EVEN BOTHER ME ONE BIT.SOMETHING INSIDE OF ME SNAPPED AND I REALIZED THAT I JUST CAN'T CARE ANYMORE. IT'S NOT WORTH MY TIME. WE AREN'T US ANYMORE & I CAN'T KEEP PRETENDING WE ARE.
SO, NOW I'VE LEARNED THROUGH EXPERIENCE THAT; SOMETIMES LIFE KICKS YOU WHEN YOU'RE DOWN. AND OTHER TIMES, IT REALLY CATCHES YOU OFF GUARD. TONIGHT MADE ME REALIZE TWO THINGS:
-LIFE CAN AND WILL GET BETTER
-THE WORDS "I LOVE YOU" MEAN NOTHING ANYMORE.
THE END.