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EVERYONE PLEASE READ THIS TO UNDERSTAND ME RIGHT NOW!!!
welp, i redid my livejournal layout & i don’t like it all that much. i wish i knew how to put the little black boxes around my entires. if anyone knows please inform me.
today stevenson & myself have been dating six months. i never thought anyone would put up with me this long but im very thankful he did. i love him a lot.
things haven’t been the same lately & it completely sucks. i have some new friends & lost some old great ones…i think?…i really do miss those people a lot & i think i NEED them in my life more than anything right now. those are the true people that really understand me & listen to me. I miss them like crazy but right now i cant be put in a situation to say sorry or talk about things because everything is already to hard on me right now.
lately ive been thinking about my dad a lot. i cry myself to sleep basically every single night. i think i need medication. i think ive come to realize i will never get him back, i miss him more than anything & i never imagined it would be so hard without him but it is truly the worse thing ever. everyhere i go i see someone or something that reminds me of him. the other night i had a dream about him & i woke up in tears & i just couldnt get him off my mind the rest of the day.i think where my birthday is coming up has put this on my mind a lot because the last time i saw him was on my birthday. hopefully i will be able to go to his grave soon. i have never been there & i think that’s put a lot of guilt on me.
well i guess i will stop complaining about myself.i know no one wants to listen to me anymore even though no one will read this.lol.
rest in peace daddy.
i miss you more than anything.
i love you stevenson.
happy six months beautiful.
here is some pictures,comment if you wish.
loser!
MAR!
me & bri
neal!!!
hehe
rach***
kayla :)
im on his back thats why its sideways
haha
jessie & mikie!!!
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