let me show you the shape of my heart
yeah, no joke i am listening to the backstreet boys (BSB). back before nick carter used to run around and beat up paris hilton. but thats besides the point.
tomorrow i just might die @ running. last yr the running day we had after thanksgiving was rightfully named the medley of death....i'm just lucky i lived to tell about it. although if i die at running tomorrow at least i won't have to write my 5 papers i have left and take my 2 finals. thats a plus
for my 5th and final paper i have to write for my AMST 391 class i have to read the great gatsby. tonight we watched a little of the movie. i feel like i'm back in soph year of english with mr. yeager. it doesn't seem all that long ago but if you stop and think it really is. i love that man. i remember when i got hit in the face with a line drive and had that god awful swollen black eye [that carl told me to tell my coach i stepped on a rake....i believe i oh so politely told him to shut the fuck up and that i hated him...it's a wonder he still talks to me, but that is another story for another day] he didn't make me take a test and told me not to worry about it. he was one of the teachers that actually cared about your life - he came to quite a few of my softball games. i always looked forward to his class because it was different. it was interesting and i will never forget that epic movie me, jolene, and melissa made "the fall of the house of usher" coming to theaters everywhere summer '05 . much <3 for mr. yeager.
all this nostalgia kind of got me thinking. why am i always meeting such great people but they are taken away for one reason or another? well i figured that you don't really get to be with anyone FOREVER - some people just are around longer than others for whatever reason. they are just there to help you out along the way and make your life that much more enjoyable. it's kind of like a relay race to the finish line- they pass you off to the next person. i truly believe each person that comes into your life is there for a reason, and it isn't until after that moment has passed that you realize their importance. sometimes i wish there was a way to tell everyone what a great impact they have had on my life. even people that - for whatever reason whether it be an arguement or distance that keeps us apart - i still hold a place in my heart for them. because at a particular time in my life they decided to drop in and lend a hand, a shoulder, or share a laugh or two. old friends, new friends, friends i've had fallings out with..there isn't one person that i don't have at least one memory ingraved in the back of my mind or heart that would put an instant smile on my face. lord knows i've had some rough times in my life - but really show me someone who hasn't - but the important thing is to learn from it. it may take awhile to learn from it, but hey thats why you meet friends along the way to help you through it. sure there's certainly some bridges that have been burned but maybe one of these days in this technological world we live in something will come along to help rebuild them. weirder things have happened. but i guess the moral of my story is you can't have everyone, and you can't have them forever. but be happy you had them for at least part of the way.