Doctor Who: "Heal Me" (Doctor/Rose)
Title: Heal Me
Fandom: Doctor Who
Characters/Pairings: Doctor/Rose, Tenth Doctor, Rose Tyler
Rating: PG
Narrative: Rose's POV, first person
Genre: Angst, Romance
Length: One-shot
Warnings: None
Spoilers: Season 2 finale, "Doomsday"
Disclaimer: I do not own Doctor Who
Summary: Rose's wishes she could be back with him, her Doctor.
I’m sitting here in the dark, in another World. I am far from you, and far from me. What is this place? I do not recognise it. So I sit here, alone, trying to understand why. Why did you make me cry?
You said “forever”. Is forever really as short a time as we got to spend together? I used to think ‘forever’ was true to its word, yet now I suppose that ‘forever’ may be open for interpretation? I was foolish enough to take your word and believe it without question; I was naïve enough to dream of my happy ending. The shop girl from a run-down estate, seeing the stars and being loved by a man powerful enough to strike fear into the hearts of warriors, yet also gentle enough to take someone like me with him on his travels.
As I think of you, your face shines through the dark shadows crawling around me. If you were here, there would be no room for shadows. I would pay anything to see your bright, shining face again. Yet I know I never will. You slipped away from me, I cry out to ask why, to only be replied by the sound of silence.
You were there. You were always there. So where are you now? What of you? What of me? I am lost without you, Doctor. All I can do is think of you. I often dream of ending it, of leaving this life. Then I wonder, will you be there to catch me when I fall? No, I don’t suppose you will.
I stayed with you, until the very end. I did everything for you, Doctor. Was it all in vain? The plans we made, the creatures we met, the adventures we had. Would it have been better if you had never taken me from my life? Then I would not have known of the wonders of your world. No, I do not believe that it would have been better. I am glad to have met you, Doctor. I am glad that I got the chance to meet you, get to know you, and eventually love you. I chose you over my own mother, yet it turns out that it was not my choice to make.
I see people. People going about their everyday lives. I face turmoil, and the World doesn’t change. Life goes on around me, though I am lost inside. What am I to do? What is next for me? I see no future without you, Doctor. As I listen to the ticking of a clock, I cannot see a life ahead of me. I do not know where to go from here. I need guidance. Can you give it to me? No, you can’t.
Heal me, Doctor. Drenched in my own pain, I cannot see through this darkness. Where is the way out? I am frightened; I feel the sweat on my palms as I run them through my hair. Will you forget me? I ask this one favour of you; please do not forget about me, Doctor. I shall treasure our memories and lock them in my head, never to be taken away, or lost.
Doctor, just know this. I will always be yours. Your Rose Tyler.