I feel sad, so left alone. Words are not enough, for me to live on.
First off this isn't going to be an emo post... its just I heard a song I haven't heard for a while, and thats the repeating lyric. Its just kinda stuck for now as for the last two years, its sometimes how I have felt. Very isolated. Very alone. To me the 'Words' refers to the internet world that often kept me sane during that time... but sometimes, it wasn't enough and I yearned for physical, social contact with the people I like, my friends and such. Even meeting new people that I would like... it was often very hard to do, and came around only a few times every so often.
Often I wouldn't have the money, or be able to get the time of work...
But all that, I am happy to say, has changed.
In essence, I guess you could say that the title is a reminder of what was as well as a reminder that it no longer is.
I have been back in Newcastle now for about a month. I am happier than I have been in a very long time. Things are looking up a bit more, and next month I will have a better wage coming in. I am seeing more and more of old friends that I haven't been able to keep in physical contact with as much as I would have liked. I have started work again. I have a routine.
Mind you, its wise not to let this new found happiness get to me. After all, the higher you rise, the bigger the distance of the fall. Shit can happen, and I think its important to keep that in mind.
Annnnnnyway... so just what have I been up to given I haven't posted for almost 4 weeks it seems.
Well, Bryony and I went to Bloodstock this year which was AWESOME, apart of my bust my ankle quite bad on the last night. I probably should have gotten it checked out, however, after 4 weeks its still moveable, and I can walk on it okay. That said, there is still some pain if I put too much pressure on it, or move it to far in one direction. Or even run or jog on it, which is slightly worrying, but I'm hoping it will be okay in a week or so as I want to go climbing again :(
As I mentioned before, I have restarted work again :D This is good as I can keep me busy and not get too bored. Its 30 hours, and I have to work Sundays, but still, it will be nice to get more than £300 a month again.
Things with Jodie are going good. Its been two months now, and I'm enjoying her company. Though despite living nearer her we still don't see too much of each other. Mind you, she's about to restart uni, and we both work now. We get to see each other about once a week at the minute, but its normally for a day or two, so when you look at it like that, its not so bad.
Thats about it really.... though I will have to try and update more often. ^__^ ;;
Anyway, till next time!
Muddy
Often I wouldn't have the money, or be able to get the time of work...
But all that, I am happy to say, has changed.
In essence, I guess you could say that the title is a reminder of what was as well as a reminder that it no longer is.
I have been back in Newcastle now for about a month. I am happier than I have been in a very long time. Things are looking up a bit more, and next month I will have a better wage coming in. I am seeing more and more of old friends that I haven't been able to keep in physical contact with as much as I would have liked. I have started work again. I have a routine.
Mind you, its wise not to let this new found happiness get to me. After all, the higher you rise, the bigger the distance of the fall. Shit can happen, and I think its important to keep that in mind.
Annnnnnyway... so just what have I been up to given I haven't posted for almost 4 weeks it seems.
Well, Bryony and I went to Bloodstock this year which was AWESOME, apart of my bust my ankle quite bad on the last night. I probably should have gotten it checked out, however, after 4 weeks its still moveable, and I can walk on it okay. That said, there is still some pain if I put too much pressure on it, or move it to far in one direction. Or even run or jog on it, which is slightly worrying, but I'm hoping it will be okay in a week or so as I want to go climbing again :(
As I mentioned before, I have restarted work again :D This is good as I can keep me busy and not get too bored. Its 30 hours, and I have to work Sundays, but still, it will be nice to get more than £300 a month again.
Things with Jodie are going good. Its been two months now, and I'm enjoying her company. Though despite living nearer her we still don't see too much of each other. Mind you, she's about to restart uni, and we both work now. We get to see each other about once a week at the minute, but its normally for a day or two, so when you look at it like that, its not so bad.
Thats about it really.... though I will have to try and update more often. ^__^ ;;
Anyway, till next time!
Muddy